Life goes on....
Well I picked that image before it snowed yesterday :) but according to the weatherman that artic wind won't be around today, although it's still blinking cold! Big thick coat and a pair of gloves and Alfie and I still enjoyed our walk.
It was good to see some of my Owls yesterday, even it was only briefly, that's probably better to be honest as it's getting me back into society a little at a time, I've been without company for so long, i've forgotten how to socialise for sure.
I had a mom wobble last night though, shed a few tears before bed, I'm not sad if that makes sense, well I guess I am when I think about the pain she suffered and that she's gone, I don't miss that version, but I do miss my mom, I've been missing her for years now. I think I'm probably hormonal too, oh isn't it wonderful being a middle aged, menopausal mess lol. Grief is just something you have to experience and it's something you have to do alone, yes friends can be there to listen but eventually I'll come to my own peace in my own time. It's all a process, I actually get angry that I don't miss her enough because I'm relieved she's gone because of the pain she was in and the pain she was causing me. Isn't the human brain a crazy mix of chaos! What I am enjoying is not having to plan anything, not having to be anywhere at any particular time, I love doing what I want, when I want. I appreciate that will change when I start working again, but for now, it's lovely.
In other news, I did my first day on track, no photos because I've broken my camera on my phone, it's got to be sent for fixing and yesterday I was reminded quite a few times how much we use them. I couldn't even barcode scan anything so I went old school in my Be Happy Owls journal I've had printed, now have I got a photo already taken anywhere cos I can't take one, hold on....
I wasn't really hungry in the morning but I made a tasty pasta dish with brocolli, peppers and sardines, I added a Aldi pasta sauce which was delicious and I even left some! Now I had the sardines because I'm thinking nutrition, it's suggested to eat 2 portions of oily fish a week, so they're one and I like them, salmon could be another or pilchards. I also like mackeral but it repeats on me, other examples are herrings, tuna (fresh not tinned), anchovies, fish roe, trout and kippers. Why should we eat oily fish? There's no better healthy boosting super protein out there! The human body cannot produce omega-3 fatty acids, which makes these crucial fats an essential part of the diet.
What do you do with this fish? Well easiest for me would be pilchards or sardines in tomato sauces on toast. I adore trout and would enjoy that with potato and veggies or salmon is truly versatile, here's a salmon and noodles recipe for one cooked in the microwave pinched from the BBC website where you'll find lots of other ideas Quick and easy oily fish - BBC Food.
Ingredients
- 1 salmon fillet (about 120g/4½oz)
- 2 tbsp orange juice, fresh or from concentrate
- 1 tbsp soy sauce
- 1 tsp honey
- 1 nest of noodles (about 60g/2¼oz)
- 2 tbsp frozen peas
- 1 spring onion, finely sliced (optional)
- 2 tsp sesame seeds (optional)
Method
Put the salmon in a microwaveable bowl. Pour over the orange juice and soy sauce and drizzle over the honey. Microwave for 4 minutes, turning halfway through. Rest in the microwave for a minute before removing, taking care as it might spit.
Put the noodles in a microwaveable bowl, cover with boiling water and microwave for 5 minutes, or until cooked to your liking. Add the peas and set aside for a few minutes until the peas have defrosted. Drain the water.
Place the salmon on top of the noodles and pour over the sauce. Sprinkle with spring onions and sesame seeds, if using.
I've got all those ingredients so it's going on my to eat list, I think I have noodles, if i don't I can use spaghetti!
Back to my journal, tears had escaped my heart as I sat down to watch a little tele and then I noticed I'd not filled in the 3 good things for that day and it really helped to lift me again, doing that every day will really help keep me grounded.
I just wished my body would get to a place where it could keep up with the things I want to get done! I want to strip the wallpaper from my living room but my right shoulder is now hurting as well as my lower back. I'd work through the pain for an hour here and there but I don't want to make it worse, so I rested it completely yesterday, grrr everything I want to get done involves my right arm lol, that's made me chuckle, why am I not ambidextrous, that would solve this problems or at least help a little.
Alfie was a lot better yesterday, I had to go and post a couple of things and he sat good in my car, he normally goes mental when I get out the car and when I got back to the car he sat golden, it wasn't until I got home it was because he'd tied himself in knots with his lead and couldn't bloody move! He's more settled though, we had a couple of walks yesterday and we've both slept like babies, he still is doing on his bed at my feet. The clingy he was the other day has eased thankfully.
Right, I have.... nothing to do today, actually I do, I have someone dropping for a short chat on the drive this morning - too bloody cold for a long one, but otherwise apart from my shopping coming, the day is mine to do what I choose. I need to get doing stuff, I have plenty that can be done that doesn't involve climbing a ladder!
I'm off, have a great day, here's to day 2 of eating healthy and having a wine free day, wish me luck.
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