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Thursday, 22 August 2019

Selfcare?

Thursday 22nd August 2019
Live for today, look after yourself for tomorrow 
 What have you done this week towards your selfcare?


Taking care of yourself isn’t just about getting the numbers on the scales down. Yeah I was chuffed I’d lost half pound yesterday but the truth is I was mostly chuffed because I’d had pizza, doughnut and other nice foods I love without any guilt, without binging and managed to do it all without gaining weight.  I like that I'm finding a balance between delicious food and taking care of my body.  I no longer what to be a certain weight or size, I just want to feel healthy and be happy in my world whilst enjoying things I do. 

Things off the top of my head that have helped me with my self care this week include my massage last Friday, ignoring the housework to crochet more because I enjoy doing that. Actually doing a bit of housework as I feel better when the house is tidy as much as I don't like the doing of said housework.  Digging out a large shrub that’s been driving me mad for months!  Eating more veggies, they're delicious but they've helped me with my digestion issues also.  Walking Alfie (time out for both of us from mom), my Sunday walk with my brother, stopping to notice the flowers and the creatures, feeding the birds, chilling and watching a movie. There’s most likely lots more but that’s good for starters.

My work is good for my self-care too actually because I enjoy it, I speak to so many people who don't and I remember that, it sucks, changing jobs is the best thing I ever did.  Don't wait for one of the major things like death, divorce, redundancy or illness to motivate you to make those changes needed in your life, do them now.  Look at your life and what you want to change and what you're willing to accept and start working on those changes, oh and remember if you're 5ft 2in, you can change that to be 5ft 6in, some things can't be changed.

Anyway, I lost 1/2lb, really didn't expect that, so absolutely chuffed, my day went well food wise until afternoon and it's true what they say, if you don't get enough sleep, you're likely to eat more of the high sugar/fat stuff - I did! 

This was the first thing I ate when I got back around ten from being weighed, bless her, Elle weighed me early.  This is one of Penn Road Butchers Roast Garlic chicken burger for 1SP, really tasty, mushrooms on one of those  Sainsbury’s taste the difference roast pepper & spicy tomato focaccia, there's 4 in the pack so I have one left, they are good for 5SP. 


 Late lunch, nice bowl of stew with a couple of slices of bread and spread, 10SP 



I'd had a packet of WW veg sticks at the workshop, so I had soup for tea as wasn't in mood for big food. 


I did have more bread and spread with it though!  Then I had a WW protein bar and a packet of bakes before I went to bed, I should've gone to bed before 9 but mom wanted to stay up, so I did all that snack damage by half 9 when she finally wanted to go up.

Now Thursday's are my busy days and for years I'd work from the minute I got out of bed to the moment I got home on the night, I don't do that now, again thinking about my self care and the fact I matter too, as does my mom, she needs more company and attention now, I actually stop for a couple hours on the afternoon and sit with her, sometimes she'll fall asleep but I'm there when she wakes.  My work hasn't suffered for taking those two hours off, actually the members get a better, more alert version of me on the night because I've had a rest.  

So many people do too much, they don't just do stuff for fun or to take care of themselves, they're always putting others first.  Let's start changing that shall we and remember we're here for a good time, not a long time.  Do something today that will help you feel better, that you'll enjoy, that's just about you!  Start noticing the things that make you smile, that make you feel better, that make you glad to be on this planet. 

I saw a fox out the back this morning, that was good for my soul, I haven't seen one for a while and I thought they'd gone as there was some food left the morning after one night.  I think they've just left the den under the summer house for now maybe, but he/she was out there looking for food, one had left their calling card by the back door (thanks for that!). The sun rise has just lifted my spirits, actually it teased me, it looked like it was going to be a glorious thing of beauty but instead it was more a sultry dark one but still quietly spectacular in it's own way, as are all of us.

I'm now thinking what's in my fridge and what the use by dates are on that stuff, I think the chicken lattice bake I have is use by today, so that'll be one meal with the beans Carol picked me from her garden.  I'll have that last focaccia maybe with scrambled eggs for breakfast, then I've got more stew, that's my day sorted.  I've got wafer thin chicken if I get peckish, I want a 1lb weight loss next week, so I'm in the lower range of the 12st, I've lost 11lb now, I'm the lightest I've been since mom was diagnosed really which is great but even better because I know it means I'm in a good place emotionally, I'm taking care of me 💓

Catch ya tomo, don't be too busy, mwah

Luv ya


Love me xx



Wednesday, 21 August 2019

Food glorious food!

Wednesday 21st August 2019
Self care is giving the world the best of you, instead of what's left of you.


Awake since 3am, lay there for an hour and decided I may as well get up and get stuff done.  Ironic really as we're talking about sleeping in this weeks workshops, the universe really does have a sick sense of humour!  I don't feel tired at the moment, but I'm guessing later on I probably will, but I'll use the time to my advantage and be productive, but first a mug of tea and my blog.

Well I did it, 100% on track yesterday, all weighed, measured and pointed, it was lovely to eat when I was hungry rather than because I'd got to take another antibiotic and needed to wait an hour or two.  

Started my day with an omelette, all zero and delicious, added a few veggies on the side to get my digestion system back to where it was pre antibiotics, although I've realised this morning, I'm not drinking my water so will be making sure I do that today too, don't like feeling all bloated at all! 
My lunch was this delicious thing, 5SP chicken & cucumber on a Sainsbury's Red Pepper & Tomato Focaccia, Taste the Difference range, I stumbled across them Monday when I was in the store, I have to say they are delicious and a bargain fro 5SP when you think a Warburton thin is 3SP and probably on a 3rd of the thickness of one of these, they're about the same size the other way. 
 

I had my 10SP bubble and squeak for my tea, now there was vegetable oil used to fry this in which upped the points, plus the ketchup I had with it, it could've been done with spray light but I was hoping the oil would also help my toilet problem, it helps things along if you know what I mean 😉

So there's 3 good healthy meals, I also had a 1SP Actimel, a 1SP chicken burger that was going to be on that bubble and squeak but didn't make it from the pan to the plate, it went straight in my mouth.  

I also made this beef stew for today, I could eat this all day today from breakfast to teatime, it's 5SP a bowl and I'll get about 8 bowls from it, I've got to save some for my brother Sunday, I'll freeze it of course, I will freeze a few portions for those days I need to feed.  


I love my 5 ingredient stew, its so easy, potatoes, carrots, onions, beef, oxo's, now I use 5 oxo's to one pack of stewing beef usually 450g and the same weight in potatoes, this is double quantities, but I stopped at 7 or 8 oxo's, what can I say I like oxo's!  The secret is to cube the spuds smallish so some of them mush into the juice to thicken and just leave it on your smallest ring on as low as it will go for hours with the lid off, then let it stand to cool down and eat the next day.  I'm drooling here! 

I'm hoping for a maintain on the scales today, but it will be a loss next week, I will track 100% this week, even if it gets ugly which it won't, it's okay if I go over my points a little as long as I track it!  I need to get back to what I was doing in May and continue my weight loss success.  I can & I will (say that out loud with me).  I really enjoyed everything I ate yesterday, when I got home and I was snacky, I opened a packet of wafer thin chicken, later I had a mini quiche that Angie had made, all zero hero's, yeah good food tastes delicious. 

Ange, one of my members said yesterday how she has a book she writes all her favourite recipes in, I think I'm going to start doing this because I've always stored them on my computer but my computer blew up last year and I lost so much, at least if I had a hard copy, I would've still had them all in one place.  She hand writes them which I also like because as she reminded us, we don't write that much these days with phones and laptops etc, so I did like the idea of a handwritten notebook a lot.  

Right, time to get started on other stuff, I'm going to go clean the living room as it's still early, moms awake but she's still in bed so I can get it done before she gets up which makes life easier.  I'm feeling the need for a declutter again, clothes I haven't worn for a long time, stuff I'm keeping in cupboards 'just in case' or because 'it might come in useful', the truth is if I needed that thing, I wouldn't be able to find it anyway, it took me half hour to find a big double blanket I'd crocheted yesterday! 

What are you going to eat today that's going to help you on your journey, I've got my stew, not sure about breakfast but thinking eggs again, maybe with one of those Focaccia and some mushrooms and tomatoes, mmm tasty, wait until I'm hungry though, not eat just because it's breakfast time.  

Let's have another good day, focus on the things that make us smile, that bring happiness into our lives, ignore the negative and I plan to get an early night after my early start!

Mwah, luv ya 


Love me xx

Tuesday, 20 August 2019

I do love veggies

Tuesday 20th August 2019
do not give the past the power to define your future.

Tuesday is Willenhall workshops day, great start to my working week they are, even with it being the summer holidays the morning one has been as busy as ever, I love that they all come early enough to enjoy a cuppa and chat before I start the official 'chat' bit.  I love nothing more than standing at my scales watching everyone interacting and talking to each other, supporting and encouraging one another on their journey.  It's lovely to see friendships forged and new members welcomed into the group.  Yeah makes going to work easy that's for sure.

Yesterday was a day off which was equally as good in a different way, I ended up going to the supermarket because I realised the £9 coupon I had off £60 needed to be used by 19th, so I went and got me some stuff I needed, I can make my stew today now, was waiting for my beef to defrost.   Instead I made sausage and mash, they are real pork sausages too, sometimes you've just got to have the real deal, I have to say though, I loved the veggies, I've been settling for peas mostly lately and it wasn't till my sister made my dinner Sunday and she'd done cabbage that I realised how good veggies really are.  That's just broke my dream, cauliflowers - who the hell dreams about cauliflowers, I won't tell you the rest but that'll be because my brother told me we were going to have a cauliflower shortage again this year!  


I think I'll make bubble and squeak with the leftovers later, have it with the chicken burgers from Penn Road butchers, then I can make my stew and it'll taste better tomorrow as stew always does.

Yeah yesterday was another chilling day, even Alfie refused to go out for his second walk, mom and I watched Hope Floats, she even struggled to keep up with that, her memory and attention really has gone now.  A couple of times this last week, she's asked me who I am, or she's told me about how she's been out with Alfie - she hasn't been out the house for a very long time ;(

Anyway, enough of that my non work life at the moment is never enough wool, not enough crochet hours, why isn't there better stuff on the tele!  At least my choice of wine at the moment is saving me money, the pinotage I usually have from Sainsbury's has been replaced by a pinotage from Aldi, it's only £3.95 a bottle as opposed to £7, even if I buy it when it's on the 25% offer, I'm still saving in Aldi, happy days!

I do need to get back on track properly though, I'm not being ridiculous but I'm not tracking properly, shall I start today?  Yeah go on, see this is what happens when I get content with myself and my life, my weight isn't a priority, so I need to remind myself I've got to this place by focusing on eating better.  I'll start tracking 100% today, get weighed tomorrow and take whatever the scales say, then work at losing, I said I wanted to be under 12st 7lb by the end of the 4 weeks on my success booklet, so I need to pull my finger out don't I.

Eggs for breakfast it is, they're zero, I'll have an omelette then I don't have to count any bread, I made mom an omelette last night and she had cheese in hers, it looked amazing, I think I'll have spring onions in mine, I might add a bit of cheese, need to get parmesan, that's a stronger flavour and you get quite a lot for 10g.  Starting list now!  They gave me another damn coupon to spend in Sainsbury's didn't they DOW!  Yeah so omelette for breakfast, bubble and squeak for dinner and tea will either be a bowl of stew or something lower, we shall see.  What I do know is I will end the day on track and within my allowance.

If you have the WW app, connect now has groups by location so there's a West Midlands one for my members to join.

I'm off to make my eggs, I feel lie I want to get stuff done today, ooo maybe I'll do a bit of housework in-between workshops, once I've got my stew on, we shall see, anything can happen between now and then, I'm so fickle it's frightening! At least I've never been fickle about my jobs otherwise we would be in trouble.

Let's make today a good one, focus on the good stuff, one of my highlights yesterday (this is how simple my life is right now) was walking in the kitchen and 5 or 6 magpies flew away from the bowl of cat food outside, that made me smile, what the dog don't eat goes out for the foxes, what the 'not my cat' doesn't eat goes to the magpies, everything gets fed in my garden, then there's all the sparrows, I've never known as many eat so much on my back garden, they empty a feeder a day more or less, it's lovely to watch them.

Catch ya tomorrow, mwah xx

Luv ya

Love me xx




Monday, 19 August 2019

If you're happy & you know it....

Monday 19th August 2019
Find what makes you happy and get lost in it.


After the chat last week in workshops, I spent some time yesterday acknowledging the things throughout the day that were bringing me happiness.   So many things, starting from walking with Alfie on the morning, the glorious sunshine setting us up for a beautiful day, perfect temperature for walking.

Ian's dogs, so cute but cocky at the same time, our walk, the fact it was a route we hadn't done before made me happy because I didn't know what was round the corner, we ended up doing 5.5 miles because I could only guess the route without doing proper map plotting.  On our walk we saw 2 herons (WOW), I think herons put the biggest smile on my face ever when I spot them.  swans, ones that were losing their grey feathers to be replaced by white, that made me happy as I'd never seen it before.

The fresh air, our chat, the dogs barking at anything that tries to pass, seeing the car at the end of the walk because my feet were starting to blister.  Seeing how many steps we'd done, then getting a message from my sister with a photo of my dinner, check out that Yorkshire pudding - that makes me happy!


Watching a daft film on tv that actually made mom laugh a little, seeing her sleep contentedly, putting her mind at rest when she wakes and things her dreams are reality and she's going round the bend, being able to settle her and reassure her makes me happy.

Licking the plate after eating when really hungry made me happy yesterday.  Alfie being in the mood for a proper second walk when I was in the mood to go too, we walked a good hour along the local canal and I was thrilled (yes thrilled) to spot fish in the canal, lots of the too, check these out.


Little things like this make me very happy, I love nature, it's incredible, look at the structure in these plants, yep the fact I notice things like this makes me happy.







Enjoying a glass of wine always makes me happy, but enjoying it whilst having a bubble bath, well double whammy!  Then having an early night after several hours of crochet brings great peace and happiness to my world.  Actually nothing yesterday interrupted my happy, not even mom at the witching hour, I'd got my impenetrable shield up, where I'd enjoyed that much happy there was no misery getting through - not a chance!  If only I could stay in that bubble forever, dream on lol, back to reality.

I'm looking at 2 magpies out my window, that always makes me happy because I think, 2 for joy!  Today is my getting ready for the week ahead day, I like Monday's, Alfie's standing behind me waiting for a walk bless him, he's making a statement by just staring at the wall, we'll go as soon as I've finished this.  I need to do a bit of shopping, I want to make a stew, but I might have a delivery Wednesday instead and make it then, it's all been in my online basket since Friday and I've not ordered it yet, pay day on Sunday so if I can stretch out the food I've got (which I can) the stew can wait.

I have one more Antibiotic to take around 11ish, that makes me very, very happy, I sprayed my arms and legs yesterday to deter the biters and the bugger bit me on the base of my back!  So next week, I'll spray everywhere, still happy though because it's just a regular bite, it's not going crazy and spreading everywhere!

What will bring my life happiness today?  Well waking up is always a reason to smile, having my aches and pains wear off quickly as soon as I'm mobile and have stretched out a little, the promising blisters have calmed down too which is a bonus.  Already I've heard some good tunes on my radio, put a load of washing on and it looks like I'll be able to dry it outside - that makes most women happy.

What made you happy this weekend?  I could probably go on but that would make Alfie unhappy because he's losing his patience and I need to get dressed and take him out.

Let's start being aware of the things that bring us joy, also notice the things that don't and ask yourself if there's anything you can change to make a difference to those things.

It's Monday, great day to make a plan!   Have a happy day, I hope too xx

Mwah, luv ya

Love me xx





Sunday, 18 August 2019

Boring blog alert

Sunday 18th August 2019
Dream with all your heart.  let those dreams be your wings.




Half six and out with Alfie, it’s a glorious morning so far but if the weather app is anything to go by it will rain!  

Another working week done and Sunday already, yesterday’s a bit of a blur, I’m trying to recall what we watched on tv so it obviously wasn’t very memorable, my workshop on the morning was good though and it was lovely to catch up with my helpers and have a natter.  

Doughnuts came up again in conversation and of course I was reminded I still hadn’t had on, at the end of the chat Bonnie came over and handed me one, her dad had drove to Lidl to get me one whilst we were talking, how lovely is that. It was delicious and also my lunch, together with an Asda blueberry muffin fibre thing for 4SP that Gemma’s mom had sent me, my members will ensure I mender starve.  The fibre thing was very nice but not very big, I’d demolish the box quite easily which is why I don’t buy stuff like that, having said that I didn’t get the chance mom saw the rest off quick sharpish! 
My tea was equally as delicious, an M&S pizza for 12SP, so good. Oh and it wasn't until I got home that I was reminded it was the anniversary of the day I'd got to goal, it would've been 15 years if I was still at goal, hey ho, at least I'm still trying to take care of myself.  And when I say got to goal, that would be the last time I did it, I have half a dozen gold cards from previous attempts, so never give up trying. 

I finished a lap blanket yesterday, it’s quite a big on as initially it was going to be a bed blanket but it was eating the yarn and heavy as hell so instead it’s big enough to go across two laps sitting on a sofa of completely cover one person head to toe. I love the stitch I did on this and would like to do it with a less chunky yarn or a smaller scale. So many ideas, not enough time, but also all I have is time so I’ll get to it eventually or maybe it can be my wine project!  Most of the projects I have on the go at the moment take concentration, although my little squares don’t for the blanket I’m doing for myself. See what I’m doing here, I’m actually thinking out loud on my blog, you’re not actually interested in all this after all but hey that’s why I started blogging, actually no it wasn’t as such, initially it was because I was trialling a new plan for WW and once it became public, I posted my journey of the success I’d had. Then from there I continued to blog about my eating, that evolved into talking about my life and thoughts and now we’ll it varies, it really is mostly a brain dump every morning, my thoughts, things that have happened, tales of my mom, my reaction to things people have said or done, it’s whatever it wants to be on any particular day. This morning as you can tell there’s not a lot going on up there in my brain. 

I am looking forward to my walk with my bro and my beef dinner from my sis, I love that my mind is calm and quiet, there are lots of people out there who wished there’s was. Is my life calm, nah, but I’ve found a way to manage how moms behaviour affects me most of the time, let it flow over me. 

Anyways I’m home again now and need to go meet my bro, so if I haven’t bored you too much, I’ll be writing again tomorrow. 

Mwah, luv ya


Love me xx

Saturday, 17 August 2019

Anyone fancy pudding?

Saturday 17th August 2019
Never be afraid to try something new.  Remember, amateurs built the ark - professionals built the Titanic! 

Did you dive out of bed this morning, or crawl out thinking oh here we go again!  If you're struggling, remember you deserve to make self-care a priority.  Whether that means lying in bed all day, eating comfort food, rescheduling plans, finding an escape through a good book, watching a movie or your favourite show on tele, or doing nothing at all.  Give yourself permission to put yourself first.  Hush the voice telling you to do more and be more and whatever you do today, know it is enough.  

Ooo eating comfort food, who's head went directly to something high in Smart Points, remember it can be healthy, you can't beat a good stew or some home made soup or a low pointed pudding, my members came up with a list of them yesterday in our Facebook group.

These are one of my favourite muffins because I know they're good for me too; 

Wake up Muffins

Serves 12, 6sp each

Tired all the time? These banana, raspberry and nut muffins will help to keep you full of energy all day long. Lower fat, rich in energy-producing B vitamins. Prep 15 mins Total time 35 mins, plus cooling. Get ahead Make the day before; store in an airtight container.

Nice microwaved for 30 seconds before eating. The muffins can also be frozen

50g unblanched almonds, chopped (5SP)
300ml natural yogurt
4 tbsp smooth peanut butter (25SP)
1 large egg
225g self-raising flour (22SP)
2 tsp baking powder
75g light brown soft sugar (18SP)
3 ripe bananas, peeled and finely chopped (about 375g unpeeled weight, 225g peeled weight)
1 x 150g pack raspberries

Preheat the oven to 200oC, fan 180oC, Gas 6 & line the holes of a 12-hole muffin tin with paper muffin cases. Sieve the flour and baking powder into a large bowl and add a pinch of salt and the sugar. Stir in the chopped banana, raspberries and half the chopped nuts. Make a well in the centre of the mixture.

Mix together the yogurt, almond butter and egg in a small bowl until smooth. Pour into the well and gently but quickly mix everything together.

Divide the mixture among the muffin cases and sprinkle with the remaining nuts. Bake for 18-20 minutes until risen and golden. Serve warm or leave to cool on a wire rack.


or These are delicious straight from the oven 

Raspberry and Banana Muffins


Serves 8, 5sp each

Whip up a batch of these light and fruity muffins.
Recipe taken from Anthony Worrell Thompson's cookbook The Sweet Life.

200g Plain White Flour (20sp)
2 teaspoons Baking powder
8 tablespoons Artificial sweetener, Granulated (such as Splenda)
100g Raspberries, frozen, briefly thawed
1medium Egg, whole, raw (2sp)
1teaspoons Vanilla Extract
50g Butter, melted (18sp)
100ml Semi Skimmed Milk (2sp)
1medium Banana(s), ripe, mashed

Preheat the oven to Gas Mark 6/200°C/400°F. Place 8 paper muffin cases into a muffin tray, or use squares of greaseproof paper.

Sift the flour and baking powder into a large mixing bowl. Stir in the sweetener and raspberries.

Beat together the egg, vanilla extract, melted butter and milk. Stir into the dry ingredients with the mashed banana until just combined. Avoid overmixing and do not beat. The mixture will be quite lumpy, but there should not be any traces of dry flour. Spoon into the paper cases.

Bake for 20-25 minutes until risen and golden. Cool on a wire rack.

You could even try substituting the butter for low point spread, save points and see what happens.  

Here's a few others, 

Mini egg custards (thanks Angie)

3 eggs
250 mls skimmed milk

2 tablespoons sweetener
Nutmeg as required
Few drops of vanilla essence 

Whisk together, pour into mini soft taco shells and bake for 20/25 mins at 180 degrees
They are 1sp each

Julia suggests Bananas and custard. Bananas free and custard about 5 points. 

Jemma says apples stuffed with the ww bars are nice can serve it with a small pot of low fat ambrosia custard or banana, mini pot of ambrosia (3sp) and a crushed up ww shortbread (2sp) or 

If you have any great pudding ideas, let me know.  Pudding for breakfast anybody?  After reading all that, I was contemplating it, I could do those banana and WW porridge mini muffin things, add 1 egg mix together and bake, they're really tasty. 

Anyway, in other news, it's not all about food (yeah it is, who am I kidding!) we had a relatively calm day yesterday, we watched Season 1 of something called Wu Assassin on Netflix, I enjoyed it, mom hadn't a clue what was going on but she seemed to enjoy the fight scenes and she snoozed a lot through the day.  What else do you do when all it does outside is rain all day!  I sat working on a big thick crochet blanket, so was glad the temperature was a bit lower as it's really heavy already.  

This morning, I'm off to see my wonderful members, then I'll do the same for the rest of the day as I did yesterday probably, if I get mom to giggle it's been a good day. 

Whatever your plans are today, remembers it's completely ok not to be perfect!  You are who you are... .and that's BeYOUtiful, one of a kind, wonderful you!

Luv ya, mwah 


Love me x


Friday, 16 August 2019

Not rushing today - it's Friday!

Friday 16th August 2019
Your current situation is giving you the opportunity to re-evaluate what you want.


This week has tested me, the antibiotics are affecting me but the upside of them is I'm sleeping well, not sure if it's them or the piriton, but either way, all hail the lie in, half six for me this morning, even mom and Alfie didn't disturb me too much, although he's hassling me for his walk now.

Food wise, I'm improving yesterday was scrambled eggs for breakfast and a packet of WW cheese crackers, lunch was veggie burger with green beans, I'm hoping that will help my toilet efforts!  Then I had this for my tea, it's a Youngs cod in butter sauce for 3SP with extra cod added which is a zero here, then a small tin of potatoes for 3SP, yeah they're still not really that great like I remember but they were convenient and made for a quickish meal. I also had a packet of WW rosemary bakes before I went to bed.
I enjoyed my workshops yesterday, it may be a busy day but when you're surrounded by wonderful people it goes quickly, it's Friday already, another working week almost complete, just the morning tomorrow for me.  I'll enjoy time with mom today, she seems good this morning.

Oh she went to bed before me last night and I was watching tele and could hear her making a noise upstairs so I put the tv on mute to listen, she was laughing like a drain and chatting to Alfie, I could hear something else making a noise and worked out what it was.  She then called me to ask if I could hear her.  I went up and she showed me her Buddha (no that's not a euphemism), I think my sister bought it her, if you press it's belly it makes a noise, different noises everything time, she was really, really amused by it.  I can honestly say my most favourite sound in the world is my mom's laughter, it makes my heart sing and fills me with joy.  I went to bed feeling good thanks to this and I've slept like a dream, woke up feeling great.

We've talked about making time for things that bring you happiness this week and seeing my happy makes me happy, spending time with her does that.  My crochet makes me happy and watching movies does too.  A good book and having time to read or listen to it makes me happy, I've just started one that caught my attention in Sainsbury's the other day, it's called The man who didn't call by Rosie Walsh, I'm not sure about the beginning though, listened to a bit last night, it sounded really good on the back of the book, but the writings a bit flowery for me at the moment, we'll see.

What else makes me happy, seeing my members buzzing, that's the best feeling, knowing that I had a tiny little bit to do with making them feel good.  Cooking a delicious, healthy meal that people enjoy, that makes me happy too.  Walking with my brother on a Sunday makes me very, very happy, even more so if it's somewhere we've not explored before, I love treading new ground.  I think we're going to head for Highgate common on Sunday if it's dry.

Ooo what else brings me happiness, oh my kitchen when my sister has cleaned it for me, that really makes me happy.  I need to re-varnish the worktops, that will make me happy, but I need to wait for a dry weekend when I'm also in the mood to do them!  Having the energy to do stuff makes me very happy also.

I'm going to write a happiness list, I used to call it my sunshine list, things that make me smile, that make me feel like I've got sunshine in my heart.  It would include things like seeing a heron, that really makes me smile, we spotted 3 on Sunday!  Ian's little dogs jumping up me excitedly when they see me because they realise it's walking day.  Alfie stopping dead in the street and lying down, then rolling on his back as if to say, 'I don't care what everyone else's definition of going for a walk is, this is mine".  Laughing with my besties, giggles with my members, belly laughing with my mom until we both do that sigh at the end in time with each other, then starting to laugh again because we've done that sigh together.  My brothers nuggets of wisdom and information on our walks, they always bring me happiness, especially as he ends some with, 'but it might not be true, it could be an urban myth'.

Oh how lucky am I that there are so many things in my world that make me smile that don't actually cost anything, funnily enough, the older I get, the less the material things matter.  As long as I have a ball of yarn and my crochet hook, a warm house, my bills paid and food in my belly life is good, if I have a glass of wine also, then life is really good.

On that note, I'm going to spend the day doing things I enjoy with someone I love very much.

I hope you do too, mwah

Luv ya,


Love me xx