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Wednesday, 19 June 2019

Tasty Zero lunch/dinner or breakfast if you're a little odd like me!

Wednesday 19th June 2019
It is better to do something than to do nothing. 




Great day yesterday, over 7 stone lost on my scales at my workshops and a wonderful vibe going on, even the rain that arrived on the night didn't bother us!  We shared our success, inspired each other to keep going or to get back on track if we'd been struggling.   Talking about this all or nothing thinking is helping too as I know I'm guilty of that, what I've realised is If you’re a perfectionist like I'm guilty of being (I'm better than I was but yeah, I'm still a perfectionist at heart), you probably have a tendency to slip into all-or-nothing thinking, you know that it’s either perfect or I’m not doing it at all attitude, I ate a cake, I may as well eat the packet attitude, this is to protect yourself from the judgement and criticism that you think will come from others if you fail.  Now that last bit was a wake up call for me, I don't like to admit it but I know that's true, I don't want to be judged so if I'm not doing it perfect, hell I'll not do it and no one can say, I'm not doing it well.  How silly is that, but I bet it's not just me, do you do that?  

I'm better than I was, so May I wasn't perfect but I was losing weight, the last few weeks definitely not been anywhere near perfect but managed to maintain my weight, be interesting to see what those scales say this morning, I know I've gone a long way from perfect so I need to be careful that, I'm not going completely opposite and being PERFECTLY CRAP, gotta get that balance, I'll be happy with a pound a month as long as it's going down and not up.

How do we stop that all or nothing thinking, well find out more in your workshop but also start lowering your expectations, stop setting those unrealistic goals, it's unlikely that you can lose weight every week or stick to plan constantly, there will be times when you're ill, on holiday, just not feeling it, that's when we need to give ourselves a break and do what we can or get back to it when we can.  Instead of saying "I'm going to lose ....', start to create effort based goals, if you're a perfectionist you probably only want to do things you're good at, that all or nothing mindset kicks in and we're scared we won't achieve our weight loss goals, with effort based goals, you're less likely to feel disheartened because you're not aiming for numbers.  You're more likely to continue, so what's an effort-based goal?  

Oh and start small, so my effort based goal at the moment, is 3 workouts a week, but only 15/20 minutes, now I didn't do one Monday as I usually would because I was doing the cooking demo with Lorraine, all we did was about 7 minutes in her kitchen whilst waiting for something to cook, but that's okay, I was in pain Monday so I wasn't going to give myself a hard time, instead I did some stretches. 

You could make an effort based goal to eat 3 healthy meals a day, to eat your five a day, to drink 2 pints of water.  Focus on EFFORT!  WW call them behavioural goals but I like the word effort because we all know we can put some effort into something, it doesn't sound as much pressure as changing our behaviour.  You up for putting a bit of effort into yourself - notice I said a BIT not a LOT! 

Anyway FOOD! I was messing around in the kitchen yesterday and made a zero pointed lentil bake - nom nom nom 


 

Trust me it tasted as good as it looked, well that's what those that tasted it told me.  Yesterday I blogged a lentil bake which was 12SP and that was good, but I wanted to see if I could replace the sweet potato with butternut squash and use spray light instead of oil and yep you can.  This is how I did it;


Zero Curried Lentil Bake –  YES 0SP!


Spray light
1 large onion (finely chopped)
1 tsp finely chopped garlic
1 celery stalk (finely chopped)
 2 medium carrots (finely chopped)
1 tbsp curry powder
175g red split lentils
 580ml vegetable stock (I used 2 cubes
240g butternut squash (cut into approx. 1 cm cubes)  
100g frozen peas
3 eggs (lightly beaten)


  1. Pre heat oven to 180C/350F/Gas4
  2. Spray light a large frying pan over a medium heat. Add the onion, garlic, celery and carrots then reduce the heat to low and cook for approx. 10 mins (until softened) add a splash of water if needed to stop it sticking and don't be afraid to add a few more sprays of spray light. 
  3. Meanwhile, put the butternut squash cubes on a baking tray and spray light them, then pop in oven for about 15 minutes, keep your eye on them, you want them cooked but firm. 
  4. Add the curry powder to the frying pan and cook for a further minute
  5. Add the lentils & stock, bring to the boil, then reduce the heat to low and allow to simmer until cooked, soft and stock absorbed (approx. 20 mins)
  6. Once lentils are cooked, allow to cool slightly and then add the butternut squash, egg and peas. Stir until combined.
  7. Place the mixture in a greased, ovenproof dish (roughly 10" x 7.5")
  8. Bake in the oven for 30-40 mins or until set and golden, timings will vary with ovens.
  9. Slice and serve.

It's delicious warm or cold, great to take in your sandwich box for work, a filling, healthy meal for lunch, dinner or breakfast if you're a bit weird like me.  Trust me, it's really good for your digestive system too!  Oh and it's a cheap meal too, helping toward your 5 a day.  Red lentils are £1.80 a KG in Sainsbury's and if you find a butternut squash a bit of a bitch to chop they even sell a Sainsbury's Soup Mix, Butternut Squash for 90p, there's 600g and it does have red onion in it but that's ok just roast that with the squash, it'll all taste good once its finished.  

The rest of my day was healthy, although I will admit to 2 chocolate biscuits last night, I had this for my dinner, it's Penn Road Butchers chicken sausages made into meatballs with a sun-dried tomato sauce and spaghetti, only 8SP.  




Lunch was a delicious bacon, lettuce and red pepper sandwich (I didn't have any tomatoes!) I love this crisp bacon, it's 7SP a packet but I only used 20g (2SP worth on the sandwich) 



I still wanted to eat at the end of my day, no I wasn't hungry, I just wanted to eat, so I had 4 Broghies for 2SP, with 2 Extra Light Laughing Cow cheese triangles for 1SP and cucumber, it occupied my mind and mouth for a few minutes!  


Right that's me, I'm off to fulfil another of my effort based goals this morning, well actually 2 of them, the first to do some form of workout, I'm thinking a bit of yoga in the kitchen maybe, then my other one is to go to my WW workshop as a member because I'm worth making the time for, everything else will wait! 

Have a very, great day BeYOUtiful.

Mwah xx

Tuesday, 18 June 2019

Cooking fest yesterday

Tuesday 18th June 2019
Do what you can ,with what you have, where you are!


Well now I've found my iPod in a drawer in the kitchen (yes I was having a sort out - decluttering again, anything I haven't used since having my new kitchen - which is coming up to 2 years I think!) Anyway, there's music on there I need to get on my Amazon playlist so Alexa can play it for me and I can have a dance party in the kitchen every day, I found my cooking mojo yesterday and remembered how much I love to spend time in the kitchen with my tunes, the food, a glass of wine if it's a weekend enjoying some down time.  

I went to Lorraine's at lunchtime to return the favour for her getting me active over the last few weeks, not to mention the sports massage (ouch) and we spent an hour in her kitchen cooking up a storm, well not quite but we did make breakfast bars and a delicious beetroot and lentil filo pastry thing with vegan cheese which was out of this world I have to say, very impressed with the Vegan cheese I bought, 

 These were the lentils I used were these, now they're 96% lentils, which means at most there's 4% olive oil in the packet, they work out at 4SP in half a packet if you use the nutritional information but personally if it's the only way I'm going to eat lentils (which are super good for me and a zero hero) I'm working out that 4% of 250g is 10g and 10g of olive oil is 3SP so I'm only counting 3SP for the packet because it's my belief that this isn't a processed food or a ready meal that would have other ingredients in.  I'm actually going to ask the question through WW because I think if these were only 3SP a packet, members would eat more lentils! 
Anyway, I really enjoyed cooking with Lorraine, the food at the end of it was delicious, it fed her family their lunch anyways and hopefully she'll now be more confident to just get stuck in and try some more of the recipes in the new WW cookbook. 

Here's the video if you want to watch https://www.facebook.com/WWBev/videos/345036242819161/
We even through in a few kitchen exercises towards the end. 

I'd bought the ingredients to make my curried lentil bake which I haven't had for such a long time and had forgotten how good it is, I'm actually going to start experimenting wth the lentil bake and other flavours after cooking yesterday, this is the video from that, it's about 16 minutes long as I've paused then bits in between where it's just waiting for stuff to simmer or bake. 
https://www.facebook.com/WWBev/videos/835869820119823/  I know some of you are probably thinking I don't need to watch someone cooking something so simple but trust me after spending that hour with Lorraine, there are people out there who don't know how to do basic kitchen stuff, we all learnt somewhere and if my video helps just one person feel a little confident in the kitchen, then I'm made up. 

Curried Lentil Bake – 12sp total

Prep Time 10 minutes

Cook Time 1 hour
Total Time 1 hour 10 minutes

1 tbsp oil (4sp)
1 onion (finely chopped)
1/2 tsp finely chopped garlic
1 celery stalk (finely chopped)
2 medium carrots (finely chopped)
1 tbsp curry powder
175g red split lentils
580ml (580ml) vegetable stock
240g sweet potato (cut into approx. 1 cm cubes) (8sp)
70g frozen peas
3 eggs (lightly beaten)

1. Pre heat oven to 180C/350F/Gas4
2. Heat oil in pan over a medium heat. Add the onion, garlic, celery and carrots then reduce the heat to low and cook for approx. 10 mins (until softened.)
3. Add the curry powder and cook for a further minute
4. Add the lentils & stock, bring to the boil, then reduce the heat to low and allow to simmer until cooked, soft and stock absorbed (approx. 20 mins)
5. Meanwhile, heat a little oil in a pan and fry the sweet potato cubes, on a low heat, for approx. 10min. (add a little water if needed)
6. Once lentils are cooked, allow to cool slightly and then add the potato, egg and peas. Stir until combined.
7. Place the mixture in a greased, ovenproof dish (mine was 10" x 7.5")
8. Bake in the oven for 30-40 mins or until set and golden (mine took 35 mins) but timings will vary with ovens.
9. Slice and serve.

Notes. I’d be tempted to do this again and replace potato for roasted butternut squash, that would bring the points down to 4SP for the entire thing!  I might even use just spray light and omit the oil to make a completely zero bake, yeah I'll do it today and let you know tomorrow.  


I had a busy day yesterday, a 2 hour training thing on morning, today won't be any different and I love it, because today I get to spend time with my wonderful members, we're talking all or nothing thinking which is something we all do. 

I really added to my food list yesterday, 
Puy Lentils
Beetroot
Filo Pastry
Dried Apricots
Pistachio kernals
Vegan cheese 
stem ginger 

Ooo looking at that list and seeing a V is making me think can I have something from every letter of the alphabet, all I'm missing right now is J, Q, U, X, Y, Z.  I'm not doing too badly then.  

Anyway, if you have a delicious recipe that needs sharing with my members via this blog, send it me, let's share the love. 

Mwah, catch ya tomorrow BeYOUtiful xx

Monday, 17 June 2019

Ooo got a bit of filming to do later...

Monday 17th June 2019
When thinking about life, remember this: No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of anxiety can change the future.

Another lovely Sunday morning local walk yesterday, just under 5 miles, we started at Rough Wood country park, then along the canal and round Sneyd Reservoir then returned the same way, lived her over 25 years and never walked round that park or the reservoir.  You don't need to drive miles to find beautiful scenery.  It's crazy how close it is to the M6 and still so beautiful, we didn't see many ducks but we did see a heron twice, think it was the same one as in samish place on our return.  Got in my car to come home and there's a fox trotting down the road toward me, at ten to nine in the morning!

Foodwise I had a picky day, didn't sit down to a meal at all, it wasn't until 12 noon I realised I hadn't eaten, so my day consisted of a crust of seeded bread, a bit of wafer thin chicken, seafood sticks and a bag of cheese and onion crisps.  Why didn't I cook a meal as planned, a couple of reasons one being I didn't fancy a big meal but the other was, are you ready for this.... I did housework!  I changed both mine and moms bedding, did some washing, cleaned the kitchen, bathroom, wet room - oh yeah the only room still to do is the living room, which I'll try and do before mom gets up this morning.  Of course I haven't done my office, I don't think it'll ever get done again, well never say never.

I then had my shopping delivery which I'd done because I wanted to guarantee certain foods for our cooking demo / lesson today with Lorraine and myself and you couldn't make it up, two of the ingredients I absolutely needed, turned out the lid had come off the stem ginger and it had leaked all over the replacement egg and ruined them, I wasn't impressed because I had just finished doing everything ready to sit with mom and now I had to go to the supermarket when I'd paid £2.99 for delivery.  Don't worry I got the £2.99 refunded!  Anyway eventually after putting everything away and returning from the shop - oh I've just remembered something else I ate because of that journey to the shop.  I bought what I went for but I also picked up a portion of bbq chicken wings, they were warm and I could smell them, but guess what, they weren't all that, so I didn't eat them all, I gave some of them to Alfie, removed the bones first of course.  

Today is a busy day, I've got to go walk Alfie first, my steps were down last week on previous weeks, that'll be the rain won't it, stopping Alfie wanting to go and me to be fair, I don't like going out in the rain.   I only earned 91 Fitpoints compared to 143 the week before, but yesterday I did okay still, 3 walks, and all that housework earned me 36 FitPoints, I didn't input the housework separately because I've counted the steps, but an hour of housework earns me 4SP!  Almost worth doing!



This is my Sunday morning, we're on an adventure & found somewhere new smile btw :) 

I found these on offer in Tesco if you like a sweet treat, they're 4SP each. 

I had this delivered in my shopping 1SP for a teaspoon. 

Alfie's waiting for his walk, then I have to prepare for my working week ahead, then I have what they call a webinar training session for 2 hours, before going to Lorraine's to do a workout I think, followed by a definitely cooking demo, we're going to be making 2, possibly 3 recipes depending on time.  You know me, I don't plan anything where cooking is concerned, I don't do trial runs, I just turn the camera on and wing it - it works or it don't.  Two of the recipes are what she's chosen from the new WW Vegan & Veggie book, so make sure you check it out on my Bev's WW page around 1ish, you'll be able to watch it later if you're busy.  https://www.facebook.com/WWBev/ We're going to be making a delicious looking pastry dish and some breakfast bars, then maybe a lentil bake which I can share the recipe with you, if I don't do that with Lorraine, I'll do it from my home (it's all about not leaving mom home alone too long).  

£8.95 in my workshops, you don't have to be a member to nip in and buy anything.

Okay I'm off, he's whining now and I can't take it anymore, catch ya tomorrow or later on the video hopefully. 

Mwah xx




Sunday, 16 June 2019

Off for walk No2

Sunday 16th June 2019
People generally see what they look for, and hear what they listen for.


Just a quick blog this morning as I'm in-between walks, I've just got back from walking Alfie and I'm off to meet my brother in half hour for our canal walk, we're starting at Rough Wood this morning.

Yesterday was a good day with mom, she was much better than she has been all week, still a little stroppy but manageable.  We watched a lovely film with Kevin Hart, Brian Cranston and Nicole Kidman, called The Upside and based on a true story, well worth a watch. I got in with my Amazon for £1.99, worth it for a good couple of hours of entertainment.

Foodwise, I was pretty dull, breakfast egg and bacon medallions on toast with mushrooms, my main meal was a savoury mince concoction I'd defrosted, mash, peas and sweetcorn, then I snacked on Broghies later with my wine.  I will continue this week to try and include different foods into my list. Tomorrow afternoon I'll be using lots of new foods as I'm giving Lorraine a cooking lesson live on Facebook and we're cooking 2 or maybe 3 vegan dishes depending on time and how bad she really is!  She can just watch me if need be lol.

It's lovely to wake up to a dry day with sunshine, even if it's not forecast to last all day.  We've had a disturbed night thanks to Alfie barking at the foxes at midnight, then again at 2am when I decided to kidnap him and throw him on my bed - he can't get off my bed so he was trapped till morning and settled, but I had an awful nightmare about him dying ;( I won't bore you with the details.

I hope you've got something to look forward to today, if anyone can recommend any funny and/or uplifting films or programmes to watch that aren't too difficult to follow that would be appreciated, I think I have watched every CSI / Criminal Minds / Without a Trace / Law & Order episode out there and she can watch them over and over again, they may be new to her, but they're not to me!

Anyway, I'm off to escape for a couple of hours, not as far as last week, we've got our duck seed at the ready, I even have some meal worms for the duckling.  We lead such rock and roll lifestyles, you know what, I love it, love not having drama in my life, well other than the drama my mom causes.

You can't beat a quiet, calm life, I look forward to having one back one day lol.

Here's to a great day, I'm thinking meatballs and spaghetti today, might even do a live in my group, that'll occupy an hour.

Mwah, catch ya tomorrow.



Food list since Sunday 9th June

Asparagus
Bacon medallions 
Baguette
Baked Beans
Banana 
Beef mince 
Belvita biscuit
Bread pudding
Broghies 
Butter! 
Butternut squash
Carrots
Cheese triangles
Cheese
Chicken 
Chilli Con Carne 
Chocolate biscuit - 1 honest 
Chocolate brownie
Courgette
Crisps
Eggs 
Fish in batter
Flapjack
Green beans
Greek yogurt
Haddock
Halloumi
Ham
Kidney Beans
Lemon drizzle cake
Lettuce
Low fat pork sausage
Milk  
Nectarine
Mozzarela 
Mushrooms
Onions
Oxo
Parma ham
Pasta 
Peas 
Pizza 
Porridge - WW stuff 
Potatoes 
Peppers - green & yellow 
Raspberries 
Rice 
Seafood sticks 
Spinach
Spring onions 
Strawberries
Streaky bacon
Sweetcorn
Sweet Freedom syrup 
Tomatoes - canned & cherry

Wholemeal bread

Saturday, 15 June 2019

It's not raining! WOW!

Saturday 15th June 2019
When you focus on the good, the good gets better.


Yay, it's the weekend, I'm ready to get ready to go to work and see my lovely members, plus I can actually see blue sky out there this morning and it isn't raining at the moment, that's a bonus!

I had my egg and beans yesterday for breakfast, nice they were too, home made baked beans are worth making for sure when you realise they're zero points compared to the silly points of Heinz or Branston ones!   Here's the recipe, I don't bother with sweetener but it's down to personal preference. Whilst the beans were simmering I did my workout in the kitchen, 20 minutes, I tried to do a different one but as soon as they started bouncing around, my leg protested muchly so I went back to the low impact for poorly knees one.


I had this ready meal for my dinner, it was alright, I wouldn't buy it again, but it did make me fancy pasta again, so I will make something myself with spaghetti this weekend.  I'm thinking meatballs made with Penn Road Butchers honey chicken sausages, spaghetti and either a tomato sauce or a white sauce, we'll see.


I indulged in a chunk of flapjack at the Chi Rooms, they were doing the Alzheimers bake thing, I've just looked and it wouldn't been about 3SP, it was only a small bite.   So I didn't add many foods to my food list at all yesterday, one more day to try and add to it and then I'll see how many I managed.

Not sure what I have planned this weekend food wise but it's all healthyish in my kitchen so should be okay, I'll go shower then think about breakfast, I feel like I could eat a horse this morning but I won't, I'll probably opt for eggs, maybe scrambled. 

Here's to surviving the weekend, moms not the best, the district nurse came yesterday so at least her leg's been dressed, even if she's not liking it being on.  We had a better day yesterday, even managed a belly laugh together at one point but she isn't a well woman bless her, it sucks to get old and ill that's for sure.  Here's to doing everything we can to stay in as good a health as possible for as long as is possible.

Mwah x


Friday, 14 June 2019

It's raining again! lol

Friday 14th June 2019
Smile, it looks good on you...


Woke up at 4ish but yay, I managed to go back to sleep and get another hour or so, so pleased because I think I've got a bit of a head cold, not surprised in this weather, I think I'm going to start on my arc today, it's getting a little silly now ain't it.

Well I managed to get one good hour out of mom yesterday, which out of 24 is a bonus I guess, she was sound with my sister whilst I was at work so that's a bonus, she's refused to have her bloods taken and I can't force her, will see if she changes her mind and wait for the district nurse to get in touch.

Back to me, I loved my workshops yesterday, actually I've loved them all week, they've really been what I needed as a distraction, you lot are amazing, so much love and laughter going on in those rooms, every workshops different and every member is too and that's what makes it a pleasure to go to work.

Foodwise, oh I just remembered the bread pudding!  What can I say it was for charity baby, we had some WW lemon drizzle cake and brownies in workshop to raise money for Alzheimers, one of my lovely members had made them, but she'd made me bread pudding, oh my days, it was so good, it didn't even make it home, luckily, I'd only had fruit and yogurt for breakfast, then I had zero soup for lunch, that too was supplied by a wonderful woman, meals on wheels at its finest.  I was so tempted to go to the chippy on my way home, especially after being told they sell Gyros now!  I didn't though, instead I had my M&S pizza with some asparagus.


Despite the weather, I still managed 12k steps yesterday so I'm pleased with that, will do me a workout this morning, hopefully the dog won't interrupt it.  He's a little nightmare, but a lovely one.  I've just seen Dave's breakfast on Facebook, I could just eat a good cooked breakfast like that, he's had egg, beans, sausages, bacon medallions and toast.  I might make the zero beans and have egg and beans on toast, mmm nice, I might even have the same as him, we shall see.  Feed a cold they say don't they, no wonder I've had the munchies all week, that's my excuse anyway, although I think those munchies have been a combination of reasons, I'm getting better though, I only had 2 broghies and cheesy triangles last night, that's only a couple of points.  I enjoyed ten minutes watching a couple of foxes come get their dinner from by my back door, the first one was oblivious to me, the second was more weary.  https://www.facebook.com/bevww/videos/10156913198445862/?notif_id=1560460135010928&notif_t=feedback_reaction_generic

Right I'm off, I'm ravenous and I have paperwork to do, I've also got a lovely massage to look forward too, plus I want to listen to 500 words on Radio 2 without distraction - HA that's not gonna happen, I don't get to do much without distraction these days!

Let's enjoy this wet Friday, regardless of the weather or anyone around us, I'm feeling strong in spirit,
I had me a bit of a cry as I walked the dog yesterday, frustration at not being able to help mom, annoyance at her behaviour, sadness as I understand it's not really my mom behaving that way but the disease and heartbreak because I've almost completely lost my best friend now, even on her good days, she's not the woman I went on the most amazing adventures with, the strong woman who was always my warrior whenever I needed protecting.  Yeah I shed a few tears but by doing that, I realise all those feelings and get back to being the next strong woman in this family, our roles have reversed and I am to her what she has been to me all my life.  Now go hug someone you love and appreciate them, even when they're being a bloody nightmare. xx

Mwah, catch ya tomorrow xx

I forgot to update my food list yesterday so here it is today with everything on, it's over 50 now, so I'm quite pleased with that, I know I could get that higher though;

Food list since Sunday 

Asparagus
Bacon medallions 
Baguette
Banana 
Beef mince 
Belvita biscuit
Bread pudding
Broghies 
Butter! 
Butternut squash
Carrots
Cheese triangles
Cheese
Chicken 
Chilli Con Carne 
Chocolate biscuit - 1 honest 
Chocolate brownie
Courgette
Crisps
Eggs 
Fish in batter
Green beans
Greek yogurt
Haddock
Halloumi
Kidney Beans
Lemon drizzle cake
Lettuce
Low fat pork sausage
Milk  
Nectarine
Mozzarela 
Mushrooms
Onions
Oxo
Parma ham
Peas 
Pizza 
Porridge - WW stuff 
Potatoes 
Peppers - green & yellow 
Raspberries 
Rice 
Seafood sticks 
Spinach
Spring onions 
Strawberries
Streaky bacon
Sweetcorn
Sweet Freedom syrup 
Tomatoes - canned & cherry
White bread 

Wholemeal bread

Thursday, 13 June 2019

Hells in my house!

Thursday 13th June 2019
Little by little becomes a lot, don't measure your success using someone else's ruler.




Yay, my moms woke up in a bad mood again - ain't I lucky!  I spent an hour yesterday morning trying to get something done about her legs, she won't go to the doctors so I took photos over, now I've got to get her blood tests for SOB Oedema and ulcers - happy days, waiting for a phone call from a district nurse and I've got to dress it in the meantime - that's nice.  Oh good morning by the way ;)

Well once I'd finished running around, even though I didn't really want to go and get weighed as I still had to go to the supermarket, mom was being horrid and I knew I hadn't had the best week, I still went and I managed a maintain.  I'm so glad I wrote in my little red success booklet WHY I want to lose weight, it was a reminder not to waste the rest of June.  Yesterday food wise, I had a better day, I bought some low pointed food bargains from Sainsbury's to stock my kitchen up and I cooked some delicious food.


I had fish in batter (6SP), butternut squash chips, beans and peas for my dinner, mmm I enjoyed that so much, I'm loving fish in batter at the moment which is a new thing because I've never enjoyed the fish in batter from the chippy.



For my tea I made a concoction of everything that was left from the previous meals, so the day before I'd made these egg muffin things and I'd run out of eggs before filling up the last 5 muffins, so I put the ingredients in a tub (diced spring onions, onions, tomatoes, mushroom, halloumi (5SP), yellow pepper, parma ham (1SP)) then I had 50g tofu left from a recipe I'd been experimenting with that I diced up) and 2 thick bacon medallions (2SP) in the fridge, then the green beans and peas left from my lunch.  I stir fried all this together and added the half packet of rice (5SP) that I had in the fridge, then at the end stirred in 2 eggs to make it egg fried rice, it was lush, tasted just like something from a Chinese takeaway, and so filling that I was satisfied and didn't need anything else.  I didn't say I didn't have anything else, but I didn't need it!  I succumbed to a Belvita breakfast biscuit which set me back 2SP, then I had another - damn my moms miserable face and awkwardness added to that god awful rain for making me want to eat a bit of something nice, I guess 4 extra Smart Points on my day was better than drinking a bottle of wine which would've cost me 19SP, if you look at it like that, I saved loads of points ;)

The first words out of her mouth this morning after she'd bollocked Alfie for doing nothing, was 'Are you at work today?" and as innocent as that sentence reads, trust me it wasn't, it was said in a way that makes you want to jump through a window!  Trying to get the doctor to understand yesterday that you can't make her do anything she doesn't want to, I can't make her go to the doctors, was just a waste of time, he didn't get it, you can't talk rationally to someone who's mind isn't working rationally.  She goes from telling me how lucky she is to have me taking care of her to wishing she was dead and talking to me like... well let's not dwell on that, let's talk food it's so much more fun.

I have a very long day ahead and I need a plan!  I've put my 0% Greek yogurt and raspberries in a bowl downstairs to get to room temperature, I think I'm going to have a drizzle of honey on it, that'll make it nom nom, so worth those extra few points.

I have a Sainsbury's ready meal I could have for my tea tonight, just bang it in the microwave, I have 2 chicken breasts in the fridge that need using, so that might be lunch, I could use the new garlic and herb bag to cook that, oh no hold on, I have defrosted savoury mince from freezer I was going to put mash on the top of that.  I'll check the date on the chicken, maybe throw it in curry sauce with spinach then I'll have tomorrows meal sorted.

Here's to a day of not letting others behaviour destroy my inner peace, I will rise above it, take deep breathes and remember I can have a huge glass of red when I get home tonight.  Ain't I lucky that I get to spend the day with wonderful people who lift my spirits, plus I've just seen my lucky fox going home after a night out, he looked so wet and bedraggled, poor love.  I put out an extra tube of dog food for them last night as I know the lady across the road is away so she won't be feeding them this week - what we like!

Just in case you think yesterday was a bad day for me with mom, don't worry there were plenty of smile moments, I'm focusing on the good, ignoring the bad, because that's what's going to keep me sane.  What are you doing to get through the day?

Mwah, see ya, love ya, I just heard this on the radio, I liked it so I thought I'd share;

Don't put off till tomorrow what you can do today, because if you enjoy it today, you can do it again tomorrow!



Wednesday, 12 June 2019

Don't let your habits destroy you!

Wednesday 12th June 2019
Motivation is what gets you started, habit is what keeps you going.


Habits, they rule us don't they, we'll come back to them in a bit, but thanks to me repeating the same bad habit as last week, I woke up tired again this morning, why?  Because I didn't go to bed early enough, it was 11 by the time I finally went to sleep, partly because I was watching the end of Killing Eve, then just as I got to bed, Alfie starting going mental at the foxes, I'd enjoyed watching them for a few minutes before he realised they were there, the rain wasn't bothering them, they were running round the garden playing together and having a ball.  

Anyway, I've had my mug of tea and I'm perking up, when I heard mom going to the bathroom earlier, I thought I'd slept in and was late for work, I was relieved to realise it was Wednesday.  I wasn't impressed to see the weather is still fit for building an arc!   Alfie finally got a walk after I finished work last night, it has knocked off a little and he was ready to go, bless him.  

I did have a better food day yesterday, started my day with a spinach and cheese omelette, one of my BeYOUtiful members gave me the WW cheese, it was lovely added to the top of this, worth the 1SP for 20g. 
 I got back from my meeting and I was starving (I know I wasn't but I felt the need to feed, it's this damn weather). I had my lunch at 11.30am, a WW chilli con carne with rice, I still can't decide if I actually like chilli con carne, but I ate it! 

Dinner was a simple slow cooker chicken stew, diced chicken breast, diced spuds, carrots, onions, oxo's.  The chicken was a bit tough I have to say not sure if that was the way it was cooked or the chicken which was from Lidl.  I have two breasts left in the fridge which I'll cook today so I'll know if they don't cook well.  It's definitely slow cooker weather for sure.  


Back to these habits, we all join WW and we're all gung ho, like me at the beginning of May when I walked into Elle's workshop, I was like 'yeah let's do this', that lasted the month to be fair which for me is really good, then last week despite my best efforts, those bad habits started to rear their ugly head because bad habits are hard to break!  

Why are they?  Well let's be honest, bad habits usually give us short term pleasure and we're all about that, everyone likes to feel good!  Routines and habits make us feel secure, even the bad ones and habits are easier to continue than to change.   

So one of my bad habits is bread and butter with stew!  It's just so good, is it a bad habit though?  Only if I haven't got the points or I eat a dozen slices instead of two.  Yesterday I managed to only have 2 slices, if I'd been shopping I'd have had low fat spread instead of butter, but at least I only had a teaspoon worth.  Sitting here typing this I've just realised I can stop buying butter all together, I only buy it for moms toasted teacakes and she's actually stopped eating them as often and I don't think she'd even notice if there was low fat spread on them now, her tastebuds just seem to taste sweet and that's it.  
The other thing about habits, well everything to be fair, is we want everything fixed now, we want easy, we don't like working for things anymore.  Well TOUGH, life ain't like that, you can't change the habits of a lifetime in a few weeks, according to the experts it takes six to eight weeks for a new habit to become second nature, I'd actually disagree with that, I think yeah it might take that long to initially fix a new habit into your life but it only takes one bad week to undo all that good work. We then go back to our old ways, our bad behaviours because they're easier, we feel like we've failed and so end up giving up try to change, it's easier to stay the same.
Well not this time, it would be easy for me to dodge the scales this morning, not been brill, tired, raining, meh and anything else you can think of.  But I'm not going to. As I scrambled through moms cupboard last night looking for a bag of crisps, I smiled to myself as I realised what I was doing and thought, see you can't eat what isn't there and that's why you're not buying her anymore! 
Changing habits takes time and perseverance, nothing worth having comes easy.  Do things that make it easier, so I've been drinking a pint of water every morning when I get out of bed, the glass lives on my desk in my office, because I took it downstairs to wash yesterday, I haven't poured me a glass this morning.  I know for me to remember to drink that water, the glass has to be there.  Same thing with the fruit bowl, if it's where you can see it, you're more likely to grab a piece.  If you hide the crisps and treats in a cupboard, they're not the first thing you see when you walk in the house.  
What habit would you like to introduce into your life?  Notice I didn't say break, it's easier to create a new habit, than to try and stop one, let's work on replacing them.  Mine is activity, I want to make moving more part of my weekly routine, so when I've posted this, I'm going to do my 20 minutes of Lorraine's OnDemand as promised, 3 times a week is the plan, so far so good.  
Here's to a very, great day, I need to get it started as I have lots to do, including facing the scales no matter what they say - they don't tell the whole story, I know better than to only listen to them! 

I added to the food list that's for sure, although it still could be better. 

Food list since Sunday 

Baguette
Banana 
Beef mince 
Broghies 
Butter! 
Carrots
Cheese triangles
Cheese
Chilli Con Carne 
Chocolate biscuit - 1 honest 
Courgette
Crisps
Eggs 
Haddock
Kidney Beans
Lettuce
Low fat pork sausage
Milk  
Nectarine
Mushrooms
Onions
Oxo
Porridge - WW stuff 
Potatoes 
Peppers - green & yellow 
Rice 
Seafood sticks 
Spinach
Strawberries
Streaky bacon
Sweetcorn
Tomatoes - canned & cherry
Wholemeal bread

Tuesday, 11 June 2019

The struggle is real!

Tuesday 11th June 2019
When you feel like quitting, think about why you started.



The struggle is part of the journey, everyone goes through it, keep going and don't give up.  That's what I'm telling myself this morning, I really don't like this gloomy weather, it affects my mood and my behaviour  which in turn affects my eating habits, everything is related to each other.

My day started off great, Lorraine invited me to do another live workout on Facebook, 20 minutes, earned 2FP for 20 mins resistance band training, watch it here - Workout number 2 - better still get your resistance band and do it whilst watching it, we're all short on time so 20 minutes is doable, especially as you don't even have to leave the house to do it, nor wear any special clothing, I'm in an old pair of leggings, they don't even fit me properly which is why you can probably see my skin as I stretch in them, but hey, who cares, hopefully doing this is going to help me shrink in size a little.   I also had another sports massage from her, she's helping me with my existing pain which the majority of is being caused by tight muscles, I have a theory about that, my brother and his dogs make me walk really fast and I have to really quicken my natural pace, I think that's not helping, so I need to stretch out before and after our walks!

Now this is where it started to go wrong but I didn't even realise it was, I had that fish to eat I'd defrosted so on my way home I stopped at the Co-op to get a bread roll to make a fish finger sandwich.  I ended up buying a Baguette thinking I'll throw the rest to the foxes with jam on (they like bread and jam!) so I came home and made this;


I even saved 5SP by taking the middle out of the piece.  I coated the fish in breadcrumbs, chives, lemon zest and roasted with courgettes and yellow peppers, I enjoyed it with tartare sauce and it only cost me 10SP.   For breakfast I'd only had a banana and a nectarine.


Do you know what's coming next?   Over the course of the rest of the day I ate the rest of the baguette, with cheese and onion, at least the cheese was low fat, oh and some with butter because I've run out of low fat spread!  Seriously need to do a proper shop with a list or online or something, this being disorganised is not helping my weight loss journey, doing all the walking and exercise in the world won't outweigh a bad diet!  I only added half dozen things to the food list yesterday, that's lame, 24 different foods in 3 days.  Today I could add chicken, I need to eat some of the food I already have again, I have a chilli pot that I could have on a jacket potato, that'd be nice and quick, maybe make a chicken hot pot, oooo yeah I like that idea, looking out the window at this rain, it's just the kind of food I need too.  I'll have eggs for breakfast, maybe add spinach, that's another food to add to the list.

We sat in front of the tele for the rest of the day, Alfie wasn't in the mood to go out and Killing Eve went on about 5 and I ended up watching 3 or 4 of them, compulsive viewing, mom doesn't like it at all but she kept quiet so I could watch it, she slept through the first one.

We had an early night, was in bed by 9, a restless night but still got me a good 7 hours in-between the restlessness.

Right I will have a better day today, here's my meal plan finalised.

Spinach Omelette with a cheese triangle - 1SP
Chilli con carne with rice - 7SP
Chicken hot pot - will only need to point the potatoes so about 5SP

Let's do this, I will ignore the horrid weather, if I don't go for a walk with Alfie because he refuses later, I will make some space in my bedroom and do one of Lorraine's workouts from her OnDemand https://www.ltfitness.net  there is always a way to add a little activity into your day, that's what she's making me realise, short and sweet workouts, doing my stretches that's she's shown me to do whilst waiting for the kettle to boil.  Yeah I need to think outside the box and add a few minutes here and there.  Mom was in a great mood when I went out yesterday morning, but not so much when I got back, took me a while to get her to a good place again, I work with that and find a way, I can do the same with working in more movement!

Let's have a very, great day!  Have you got your menu sorted?


Food list since Sunday 

Baguette
Banana 
Broghies 
Butter! 
Cheese triangles
Cheese
Chocolate biscuit - 1 honest 
Courgette
Crisps
Eggs 
Haddock
Lettuce
Low fat pork sausage
Onions
Milk  
Nectarine
Mushrooms
Porridge - WW stuff 
Peppers - green & yellow 
Seafood sticks 
Strawberries
Streaky bacon
Tomatoes - canned & cherry
Wholemeal bread