30th March 2017
Don't think about what can happen in a month. Don't think about what can happen in a year. Just focus on the 24 hours in front of you and do what you can to get closer to where you want to be.
A week yesterday my bestie told me "there's nothing wrong with the shape of your bedroom, the problem is all the crap you have in it", she then picked something up and suggested I didn't need it anymore, I almost had palpitations at the thought of getting rid of it or anything else in the room! She then pointed out that I'm always saying don't live in the past, focus on the future and I thought yeah, good point. When I say don't live in the past, I mean the negative things, it's good to remember the good stuff, but again as she pointed out the memories are in my head not in objects and I could always take a photo of anything to recall it.
Well that was the beginning of quite a week, I can't believe what clicked in my head as I realised being surrounded by all this stuff was making my life more chaotic and cluttered than it needed to be, so I began the clear out.
In the last seven days, I haven't just cleared the house of stuff, lots of stuff by the way and I'm not finished yet... No it's been more than that, over the last week, I've realised I still have that, "I want it all done and I want it done now" personality, that hasn't gone anywhere but it appears I've also grown up a little and learned how to talk myself calm and realise it doesn't all need to be done today, plus if I wait a little longer I can get exactly what I want. After all one of my sayings is "the time will pass anyway" so I'm reminding myself to breathe, 'inhale, exhale', plan, think about it, don't go at it like a bull at a gate and work through it all.
Yesterday I made use of bin day, topped up the immediate neighbours bins and then found one that hadn't got anything in at all, they'd obviously not been in much this week, so I stole it long enough to fill completely with old paperwork I no longer need to keep and then popped it back.
Every time I throw something out, I feel lighter, it's so good. I've also realised part of the satisfaction is in the doing, not just seeing the end results. I feel good knowing I've worked hard to get the house to where it is, I'm also enjoying burning those calories from being active. It's keeping my mind occupied and stopping me from sitting and vegetating in front of the tv.
This thought is making me consider doing my own painting, I've had an offer of someone doing it for me, but now I'm thinking it would be quite therapeutic to do myself and quite satisfying lying in bed knowing I've done it. We shall see, that's one to think about. Not today though, today I shall mostly be working a 12 hour day and that doesn't include the hours before leaving the house at 7.30am, I've been up since 4ish, I feel good though, apart from a few aches and pains - middle again, you gotta love it!
Got my easy meals to get me through the day today, might have gammon or maybe chicken, either way they're easy to do, went for the 3 for £10 range, I might even have fish. Need to check the dates, think I need to pop a couple in freezer as I've just clocked the fact is the 30th March, where did that month go!
Right I'm off, strong tea and coffee needed today, although I have already drunk my first pint of water and my new water bottle really is encouraging me to drink water I wouldn't normally do, plus it stops me spilling my water too!
Okay BeYOUtiful, let's focus on the 24 hours in front of us and do what we can to get closer to where we want to be.