18th
September 2018
Your opinion
of someone else’s body is none of their business so keep it to yourself. Fat
shaming is never okay!
I am
sleeping normally again thankfully, I’ve been sleeping to my alarm and not waking
in hot sweats for the last few days which is fantastic, definitely hormonal I
reckon, so I’ll enjoy the sleep whilst I can.
I did have a late night (for me anyway – 10.30pm) last night thought because
I watched the third season of No Offence one after another, it was brilliant!
The
highlight of my day yesterday was finishing the Crochet blanket I’ve been
working on for months and delivering it to find they loved it – phew! It’s been a labour of love but I won’t lie I’m
glad it’s done. Working on a fluffy,
super chunky multi-coloured one for my bestie, then I’m not doing anything for
anyone, I’ll just do what I fancy, I’m not saying I won’t let others have them
once they’re done, but I don’t want to be on a time constraint or have to stick
to a project.
I’ll be
doing a lot of cooking today, something went wrong with my freezer last night,
I think I might have just left the door slightly open because it seems to be
working now, I have some defrosted fish and the chicken that I was going to
freeze, I’ll do something with them this afternoon, I’m just relieved I don’t
have an entire freezer full to get rid of.
Notice there’s
no mention of my eating above! I was
just going to not mention it but that’s not going to help anyone is it, especially
me, I’m struggling, I can eat well most of the time but yesterday I just couldn’t
be bothered to cook, after spending all morning running errands and cleaning
the kitchen up, I sat with mom to try and break her day up. Then she starts offering me biscuits, I caved
and over the day had about 6, so that could’ve been worse. I’d had those turkey and cranberry sausages
for breakfast on a lo dough, they’re good.
I cooked a bit of beef for Alfie - I know he’s spoilt but he was clipped
yesterday and it was his treat. Anyway he didn’t eat it and I picked at some of
it with a slice of bread. Then for tea I
had crackerbread, spread and cucumber – 6 of them, followed by another 3 with
proper butter on, one every time I went in the kitchen!
So today I
will attempt to get back on track – AGAIN!
I’ll do that as often as I need to.
I let my members know it was 99 days to Christmas yesterday, 98 today,
even that didn’t encourage me because it won’t mean anything in our house, it’ll
just be another week but one where I have a couple of days of work, a couple of
days to sit and do nothing but to be honest, staying homes harder work than
going to work.
If I sound
negative I’m not, honest, I’m just being realistic and truthful. I’m actually feeling very calm this morning
and I’m looking forward to my meetings, to seeing people, to having a very
great day in every way. It’s seriously
windy out there, let’s hope it blows away all our cobwebs and wakes us all up
good and proper.
As I can’t
have mom back to her true version that was so easy to be around, I’ll make the
best of our situation, it’s not always easy and I end up indulging in a biscuit
or two with her, but overall, we’re doing alright. How are you doing BeYOUtiful? It’s good to talk, I know I’m doing mine to a
screen with a keyboard at the minute but I’m still getting it out and I will
talk to others today. Don’t keep stuff
in or bottle it up, that’s not healthy at all, neither is eating your emotions
to the point it makes you ill.
Today, have
the best day you’re able to.
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