When you realize
that you always have the answers within yourself, you can stop searching
outside of yourself.
Child – “I’m hungry”
Parent – “Don’t be silly, you’ve only just
eaten lunch”
You ever said that to your child? Or where
you ever that child?
Yesterday I took Alfie for an afternoon walk,
we’d already done our hour on the morning, but when I got back from my meeting
the sun was shining and it looked glorious out so at noon I decided to take
advantage of the weather. I usually
follow him where he wants to go but I will own up to pulling him up the country
lane so I could enjoy the scenery. I was
really chuffed when he decided he wanted to go over the farmers fields, my old
running route and we trudged through the muddy fields enjoying the view and the
fresh air. We were out almost 2 hours,
although we only covered about 3 miles, Alfie likes to smell things, and I’m happy
to stand and wait, it’s my time out and it’s good for me.
When we got back I decided to have a tin of
Heinz Tomato soup for my lunch, 6pp is a lot for soup but it’s a meal I’ll only
eat once every blue moon, I had it with 95g of Weight Watcher bread (all
weighed on my scales, think there was 5 slices including the crust) 6pp and 38g
of Weight Watcher spread 1pp, again weighed and it did the trip I just like the
texture of the spread as the soup melts it so it doesn’t really have to be
butter. So I’ve just eaten just over
500g of food, which is over a pound in weight.
For my breakfast around 7.30am I’d had a 3 egg spring onion omelette with
a tiny bit of cheese 7pp, and I’d eaten a banana about 11ish.
Half hour later I’m sat there thinking ‘I’m
still hungry’, and that voice in my head said, “Don’t be silly, you’ve only
just eaten lunch”, I’m not actually sure if my mom ever did say that to me or
it’s my subconscious, judgemental, expert, weight loss, inner cynic! But anyway, yeah actually I think it was the ‘inner
expert, know-it-all, smarty pants bitch’ as my mom wouldn’t just give me a
slice of bread and butter back in the day, and probably dipped it in the sugar
bowl as a treat! So this expert,
know-it-all continued saying, “how can you be hungry when you’ve just eaten all
that food? People eat on average 2.5kg
of food a day and you’ve just eaten the 0.5kg, maybe you’re just thirsty”. She continued, “Maybe you’re just a greedy
cow! Maybe you just can’t stay on track
and within your ProPoints for more than a few weeks without veering out of control”. I’m trying to catch up on the XFactor results
with my mom and this opinionated, overbearing, inner critic won’t shut up! “Go on, blame your hormones, I’m sure if you
look at your app on your phone you’ll be able to justify ‘being hungry’ by
where you are on your menstrual cycle, OR you could blame the cold weather –
comfort food and all that”. At this
point I’m watching Rebecca Ferguson sing thinking, “what does she look like?! And
yes I do think I’m properly hungry”, when my wonderful inner bitch (yeah she’s
turned into a full blown bitch now, she’s going for the low blows, getting
quite personal with her remarks now, I’m afraid because I don’t like typing
really nasty stuff, nor swearwords on my blog, I’ll leave it to your
imagination, but trust me she’s doing her best to make me feel pretty hopeless
and out of control.
If I could’ve at this point (well I actually
could have but I’d have looked a bit silly) I would have put my fingers in my
ears and shouted “la, la, la, la I’m not listening”. I was hungry, I could tell, just because I’d
just eaten something didn’t mean I wasn’t.
My inner cynic might be telling me it’s wrong to still be hungry after
eating such a descent meal, I even remember at one point her reminding me of a
programme I’d watched on the tv that said soup fills you up for longer than
ordinary food! Well whatever, that’s
what I say to all that because I WAS STILL HUNGRY! Guess what I did ;0) I went and made myself a massive sandwich
filled with a bag of salad leaves, cucumber, a couple of slices of wafer thin
beef and a tiny bit of cheese on two slices of seeded bread for 10pp! Check me out – REBEL!
That’s how I knew I was actually still
properly hungry, because I didn’t just want a biscuit or a bag of crisps, I
wanted something proper that would actually fill me up. I ate that at about 2ish and then I never ate
again for the rest of the day - so yes I was properly hungry.
I think the point I’m trying to make is
listen to your body, don’t always believe the info you’re given or you read
about in books or on blogs! Take all the
information handed to you and choose what will help you – be your own
passionate expert. You don’t have to eat
3 meals a day at set times! It is
possible to still be hungry after you’ve eaten a meal!
Learn to identify the things your
subconscious says to you, we all have those voices – they’re actually our
subconscious thoughts – we’re not going la la!
They include our memories, our beliefs, our cynics and only you can
learn to drown them out or better still change them.
Okay, well now you all think I’m a crazy who
sits there having conversations with myself in my head – I’ll let you go ;~)
Oh and just in case you were wondering, I’ll
put my hands up I think a lot about eating and food, I walk the dog whilst
planning my meals and thinking up new ways to cook my favourite thing. I don’t actually have conversations with
myself ‘-) I just think a lot!
Enjoy your day, and learn to silence that
inner cynic!
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