Let's do this!

Tuesday 18th May 2021

Go for it now - the future is promised to no one!

Today's the day, looking forward to finally having a chat but more so listening to members sitting and talking to each other, to it being so noisy I can't hear myself thing, to wishing I was in on that one conversation I can see taking place because it looks like a good one and just to seeing happy faces.  Oh and this hugging lark, mmm I'm never going to be the most demonstrative person out there, but I'm not averse to the odd hug now.  Seriously though, Elle and I have put a lot of hope into this, yeah there's been a cash investment at a time when we both need every penny we have, but it's the emotional investment that matters to me most, Happy Owls has been around for well over a decade as an idea in my head and now thanks to Elle and lots of Owls wanting to be part of it, we're ready.  It's success will decide whether it's beans on toast for tea most nights or the odd steak lol. 

Yesterday I enjoyed my food, actually felt hungry (novelty) and ended on about 1,700 calories, I'm not rushing to lose weight, or cutting down crazy, I'm in no rush, I've just put my life on hold for years, so weight loss can be slow.  I enjoyed this for breakfast; 

15 calories for the ketchup made all the difference to that plate of food. 

 

This fish was sent as a substitute weeks ago, I didn't think I would be keen but it was good!  

I also had a tin of chicken soup (212 calories), I did have a slice of bread and butter with it - nice, then later I had these with salad because they were on their use by date, they were okay, I don't think I was really hungry so I didn't enjoy them as much as I would've done if I had been, I left some too. 

I got my carpet down in the back bedroom too, I'm really pleased with it Ashmore Carpet centre | Facebook now to hoover it and get everything in there to make it look pretty.  I'm having cupboards made to go up that wall you can see, so that it looks like a long flat wall with the cupboards that are already there.  I need a second plug socket putting in because that one is the only one in there and ones no use, I have a scentsy warmer and music to play for starters!

I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, June will be here soon enough and those cupboards will be filled and I can get on with filling them and cleaning the rest of the top floor away.  

I enjoyed a UW training course last night, I'm truly fortunate that I've found two ways to earn money that I really enjoy doing because both benefit people in different ways.  UW will top my wage up whilst helping others save and maybe top their wage up too!  

One thing they covered which I found really interesting was about beliefs, ask yourself for a moment, what belief's do you hold true that are holding you back?  What even is a belief?  It's something you believe to be true at any given time.  Take some time to think about your beliefs and whether they're helping or hindering your success whether in work, weight loss, love life, wherever, then ask yourself, do you run your thoughts or do your thoughts run you!  

Don't be a slave to your thoughts - control them.  On that note, I'll see some of you soon (EEK!) let's all have a very, great day, I'm hoping for a busy one.

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me xx

Here's to our new venture!

Monday 17th May 2021

A little progress each day adds up. 

I woke up just shy of half four, that's exactly 8 weeks to the hour that mom died, spooky some would say, I'd say coincidence and I'd had a good sleep, I can't believe it's only been 8 weeks though, they've gone quickly but at the same time it seems such a long time ago.  I've woke up feeling positive though and ready to get back to losing some weight after winging it for a fortnight or more, I've just weighed myself for the first time since May 5th and I've stayed the same, no shame in a maintain!

Why am I ready to lose weight today you ask?  Well it's Monday of course, always a good day to reset, but seriously because I'm in pain, I went to bed last night and everything hurts, I've woke up today and getting out of bed, I looked like Gollum's sister as I recreated the evolution of man as I made my way to the toilet trying to straighten up! Let's see if losing a stone will help lower that pain shall we, no I don't expect to do it by the end of the month but here's to eating more fish, veggies and other such foods.  I've already made great progress by removing the crisps, chocolate and other such junk foods from the house, now to work on the other stuff and that does include lowering the alcohol intake as difficult as that is to type!  Yep, my tracking is back on, I'm going to use my Be Happy Owls journal and get my act together.  

The hard part of the house sort is done, the big clear-out is almost complete, the carpet is being fitted today, the cupboards will be done first weekend of June, shame it's not before as I would like to clear the floors in my bedroom of stuff but hey ho, it'll happen.  Alfie quite likes making a bed out of the spare pile of clothes that have no home at the moment.  I'm having this constant battle in my head about a 4x4 Kallax Unit, at the moment it's on the landing and I need to decide whether it's going back in that room or not, if I was following my heart, it would not go back in, I'd take it apart to get it downstairs and put it in the summerhouse.  Then bring the two smaller ones from the summerhouse back into the house and decide whether they both go in my bedroom or one in each.  Yeah I think I've just answered my own dilemma there haven't I.  

Food, I had beans on toast yesterday with a little parmesan and it was delicious, what a fab cheap meal, that's going to go on my weekly to eat meal plan.  Today I'm going to have some fish in white wine sauce out of the freezer for lunch with mash and veggies for dinner, breakfast is egg and mushrooms on toast as they need using and if I cook them all and there's too many I can have the rest with dinner or in a tin of soup if I have one for lunch.  There's 3 meals sorted, I'm not having wine today because of getting up for our first sit down meeting tomorrow, I want to be fresh as a daisy for it.  Instead I plan to do some yoga and meditation later in my chill out room once the carpets fitted, this is going to be part of my new routine.  

The tv used to be on all the time in this house, not anymore, there's the radio, music or my audiobooks most of the day, until I settle down to relax later in the day, which I also have down to a fine art may I add.  I have spent so long 'sitting' with mom over the last few years, but it wasn't at all relaxing or restful, I don't think I realised that until now.  

Eat well, move more, get good sleep, be healthy & happy - that's the goal!  There's not quick fix, not magic potion, no 'NEW' diet that's going to be 'THE ONE', I've just read an excellent book - Why We Eat (Too Much): The New Science of Appetite by Dr Andrew Jenkinson and if like me you're interested in the science of it all, it's well worth a read, it explains how science has got it wrong in the past, how 'fat' isn't the devil, how sugar isn't great, why we shouldn't follow certain diets like paleo and keto, it's really educational.  Then he goes on to tell you how to lose and keep the weight off!  I took some interesting bits from it, I will stop using vegetable oil once the bottle I have has gone, but I'm not willing to do all the things he suggests for more than one reason, firstly I like eating all foods and drinking wine and secondly, eating grass fed beef, pork and chicken is beyond expensive, £20 an organic chicken is, £3.80 I pay for mine from Sainsburys.  Yes doing everything he suggests may help me lose a few stone and live longer but hell, I'll take the shorter, fatter life which includes the odd takeaway, freezer meal and vino!  

We're all adults, let's be realistic about what we want from life, I want an easy, calm, quiet one, I want to sit in my garden in the summer with a glass of something nice having giggles with my mates.  I have no desire for nights out on the lash, followed by sweaty gym sessions to burn all the calories I consumed so that I can get a 'thin' body - I did it in my twenties, I'm over it now.  I'm happy with my buddha body, I'll be happier with it to be a little nearer to a zen goddess lol but I'll take how I feel over how I look any day of the week, I like me and there's a lot to be said for that, it's good to be liked but if I'm not it's okay, because what other people think of me is none of my business, I'm happy in my world. 

On that note, I'm off to make that healthy breakfast, here's to surviving Monday, making it through the week as I enjoy the company of the best kind of people in our huddles - eek exciting times. 

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me xx

Painting - MEH!

Sunday 16th May 2021

"Be" Don't try to become.

Well I officially don't like painting and I've realised it's because I don't feel like I'm doing it properly when I'm doing it, I like to be good at things that I do, so the way it makes me feel is actually what I don't like not the painting.  Although the pain in my body from doing it ain't much fun either but that I can cope with if I get the result I want.  I've just got the gloss to finish now which I will do as soon as I've finished typing because they're coming at 11 tomorrow to fit carpet and it needs to be dry by then.   I'm about to blame my tools lol, the paint I had has been in the shed forever and it was crap paint, so when it comes to the living room, I'm buying nice new paint, but I'm still gonna leave it for my brother to do hopefully, we shall see, I don't mind upstairs looking 'ish' but I want the living room to look good don't I.  

Now let's talk colours, I've had the bedroom white, I love white, I'm also not adverse to magnolia but I fancy an off white for the living room, a light, neutral / wheat colour, but when you compare the colours, you'd be surprised at how many of them are not that far from magnolia, but at least twice the price! 

I cooked yesterday too, a pork shoulder joint in the slow cooker, following instructions from Julie's hubby and Elle, I put it in with a pint of water and 2 veggies cubes (Arf had said he used chicken but I didn't have any), I left it on low from 7.30 till I got back and then turned it to high about 11ish, then after 3 hours I removed the skin and put that in the oven with my roasters and made the gravy in the stock in the slow cooker to save on washing up :).  It was delicious, I didn't know I liked pork until last week, I think it's because I always think of bellydraft and I've never been a fan of that, I don't really like pork fat or cracking, Alfie enjoyed crunching on that though.  I must remember to put carrots on my shopping list next week, I'm not a fan of frozen carrots, I like frozen peas, green beans and broccoli, but not carrots I'm sorry, I just can't but then I will only eat carrots sliced round in stew otherwise they have to be sticks - me weird, hell yeah.

I'm in a really good place right now, my pain reminds me I'm alive, my yoga is doing me the world of good, clearing my stuff is cleansing my soul and decorating and changing things up is helping move me forward.  I have Elle to thank for giving me the push I needed at a time when pushing too little would have meant not a chance and pushing too hard would have possibly broke me, but no she has a knack (it's what makes her a great coach btw) and because of that we are about to start our sit down Happy Owls Huddles from Tuesday, so spread the word, we are so excited.

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Tuesdays 9-10.30am (talk 9.45-10.15am)
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RCCG church (opp Tesco garage)
Stubby Lane Wednesfield WV11 3NF

 Thursday 8.30-10.30am (talk 9.45-10.15am)
& 4.30-6.30pm (talk 5.45-6.15pm)
Bloxwich Memorial Club, 5 Harrison St WS3 3HP 

Saturdays 9-10.30am (talk 9.45-10.15am)
United Reform Church
Old Fallings Lane. Wolverhampton WV10 8BH

But before that, I have gloss to paint, a zoom this morning with Happy Owls, this will be a regular Sunday morning chat at 9 for those who either can't get to a huddle at all (£10 a month) or who dashed in for a check-in but couldn't stay for the talk.

I've just realised I make it sound like I was busy all day yesterday, I wasn't, once I stopped and ate my dinner, Alfie and I settled down together on the sofa and chilled the rest of the day, Alfie bless him slept like a log, I watched a wonderful film called The Broken Hearts Gallery, I have relaxing down to a fine art, I really do, my Fitbit says I also slept almost 8 hours and woke 3 times, I woke more than that because Alfie got me up to go out once, then I remember looking at my phone at 11, 1, 3, 4 and then getting up at 5ish.  

Here's to an hour on my knees painting, send me positive energy vibes to see me through it, at least I can have my music on loud as no ones moved in next door yet, otherwise it would be a little too early for the volume I'm going to need to get me through ;) 

Have a super Sunday whatever you've got planned, I've got leftover pork so can have another dinner, now Alfie does like frozen carrots so that's his dinner sorted too.  

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me xx

Busy ay I!

Saturday 15th May 2021
Don't be afraid of making mistakes.

Another mist coat applied, it needed it and once I've put the top coat on later today, it's gonna be finished - yay.  I've glossed the old airing cupboard doors so I only have the skirting board and curtain rail holder to do and then it's project paint over and out, I can feel all the muscles in my back but thankfully I'm not in crazy pain, it's just that 'yep I've done some manual work' kind of feeling and that's quite a nice feeling.  My body has done so little for so long, it's good to be moving it again.  

I nipped over the road to the shops as I think it's important to support local businesses, got my tin of gloss from the hardware shop, then popped in Ashmore Carpet centre | Facebook (please go like their page, help them grow their business), I'd only nipped in for a look, but I'd got my measurements and asked him to give me a price for supplying and fitting, I honestly wasn't bothered about colour, just wanted something dark and nice on the feet cos I walk around barefoot all the time.  Ten minutes later, I'm booked in for Monday morning, a nice dark grey, that's my kind of shopping, no messing about, he was very helpful and easy to deal with. 

Two of my brothers lads popped round teatime and got my sofa back down, they said they'd have rather done another full days roofing, let's just say it wasn't easy to get down, it had been even harder to get up there, but we had to get that damn hospital bed in the living room that she refused to sleep in anyway, so it was pointless.   Just thinking of that bed brings back horrible memories and tears to my eyes, so let's move on, just one of the reasons, I want the living room and that bedroom to look completely different, so I can focus on the future and remember the good times, the memories I choose to hold on to.  

A busy day ahead for me, morning with Elle and some Owls, then the afternoon painting. It's all burning calories and helping me get my 8 hours sleep that's for sure.  Oh food, I ain't being great but I ain't being horrendous either, I had porridge in a cup for breakfast with a little agave syrup, lunch was amazeballs I have to say, Katsu burgers 236 calories each and vegan, I was really impressed, they were £1.80 introductory offer. 

 

And these were my tea, I love a french bread pizza, 230 calories each, if I had a regular pizza, it would be over 1,000 calories and I'd eat the lot so these are a bargain at 460.

I then had a crust later with some cheddar cheese dip on it, plus my wine but all that would've come in under 2,000 calories and I used 2,524 according to my fitbit yesterday, so I'm happy with that.  Work in progress. 

I'm off to get ready for my day, here's to a good un, gonna do a little bit of yoga first to set me up. 

Have a great weekend, mwah, luv ya 

Love me xx

I do love a Friday

Friday 14th May 2021

No Rain, No Flowers 

Morning, I'm ready for my day again, round two of painting, I took my time with round 1, not gonna lie didn't think it was working, a mist coat on fresh plaster is a first for me and it's been that long since I painted I thought it looked wrong, but it looks okay this morning, gonna do a second coat this morning and then a top coat tomorrow probably, that way my body ain't a complete mess.  I have to say just a little bit of yoga each morning is helping, it stretches the muscles doesn't it so even after painting the ceiling yesterday, my shoulders aren't so bad thankfully.

Food wise, it was a very boring day, I had a bit of eggy bread for breakfast, just wasn't in the mood for food (what!), lunch was the last pitta bread with a bit of salad and this; 

I wasn't impressed, actually I left it, jackfruit just isn't for me but this was so sweet, sugar was second on the ingredient list and you really could tell.  Not for me, but I could see how others would like it, the sugary sauce is masking the fact that the jackfruit isn't meat.

My sofa is being brought back downstairs today, well he messaged to say he'd do it today so fingers crossed, I've got to clear the path for them so they better come.  There's stuff everywhere, none of it in it's final destination.  On a positive though once the sofa's down, I can sort my bedroom, then once the back rooms painted, I can arrange for carpet to be fitted and first weekend in June, I'm having the cupboards fitted in there and we should have some kind of order in the house by then.  24 days to go! 

Time's not flying though, it'll be 8 weeks Monday since we lost mom and that seems such a long time ago already, it really does.  When I check out the memories on Facebook each morning and it takes me back to the good times, it seems even longer since we really lost her because the last 12 months or more, she wasn't 'mom', the wonderful woman who'd bought us all up with such love and humour, oh now that mom, I've missed for a very long time.  

WOW just heard on the radio, it's 40 years since we lost Bob Marley, that's ridiculous, where have those years gone.  We need to make sure we make the years matter because they do fly, it's funny I was on a zoom the other day and yeah it was a business call so it focused on making money and getting work etc, but I think all work and no play is a huge mistake.  Each to their own but I don't need to be rich, I just want to be able to pay my bills, I'd rather spend my time enjoying the simple things in life, spending time with my friends and family, walking my dog and relaxing.  I've done the working ridiculous hours, I really don't want to go back to that, work/life balance and remember the hours you enjoy wasting, are not wasted hours at all.

On that note, I'm gonna have me my 5 games of Pet Rescue Saga and/or Candy Crush, then I'll do my yoga, then either walk Alfie first or get the painting done then walk Alfie, depending on what he wants, he let's me know when he wants a walk, like yesterday when he came and sat in-between me and the paint pot! 

Have a great day, yay it's almost the weekend! 

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me x

Another day of rebuilding my world ahead

Thursday 13th May 2021

The most important things in life aren't things.

Well I was a busy bird yesterday, I have to do things when the mood takes me and it certainly did.  I filled the car with as much crap as I could and took a trip to the tip, this sentence took seconds to type but hours to actually do!  I got told off at the tip too, felt like a naughty kid I did, but I took it on the chin and promised not to do it again. 

Next I moved the double bed into the box room, my old office and it's staying there, it's covering the scuffed laminate floor where my office chair has damaged it so I don't have to replace that. Now I can make the big back room into a lovely chill out room to do yoga in, after all I'll be doing that more often than I'll have visitors stopping.  

There's just a unit to take out of that room now and once painted it's clear for a carpet to be fitted.  I'm going to have to take the unit apart I think, it's too big to get out the room, so that's another task for the 'to do' list.  I'm gonna start painting today I think, I've had my instructions from everyone with a bit of knowledge lol and now I can make a mess of it in my own sweet way.  To be fair I painted my bedroom and it looks okay, it's just a crappy job ain't it, makes my arms and neck ache, so I'll take my time and spread it over a few days.  

The highlight of my day was a visit from my sister and she bought me a homemade chicken pie which was dinner sorted.  Nom Nom it was, very filling too, I enjoyed it with some veggies and a couple of roasters.  It was so good just to sit and have a natter, no having to be anywhere or do anything, although Alfie was being very vocal and vying for attention. 

Right I've not got much to say this morning, my heads empty, it's getting itself ready for doing that room, it's also aware that it needs to start eating healthier, sorting my portions out and getting some organisation in the kitchen going on because I need to lose some weight no matter how slowly! 

I'm off, have a good day, mwah luv ya

Love me xx

Project upstairs continues

Wednesday 12th May 2021

Be the best you can be. 

Cracking day yesterday, busy, got to chat to lots of lovely people and I also managed to fit in a UW appointment and saved a new customer £130 a month, that's over a grand and half a year and that's before they use their cash back cards which will be even more because as well as their everyday spend, the husband is self employed and uses B&Q so there's 5% every time he buys work stuff!  Such a good feeling helping people, it's why Elle & I had to set up on our own, we need to do the Happy Owl huddles, it's in our DNA to help people be the best they can be and feel good about themselves along the way. 

Gail (our other Owl partner up in Blackpool) pointed out to me the other day that as well as Owl standing for Over Weight ladies/lads as I intended it to all those years ago, it could also stand for 'our weight loss success' or 'our wellness lifestyle'.  My priority has always been to help people realise they are already good enough and to realise they're BeYOUtiful and work on taking care of themselves from a place of love not hate.  It's truly important to remember what other people think of you is none of your business and put yourself at the top of your list because you need to be your own best friend.  

This week is mental health awareness week and this year theme is nature, I can't wait for the weather to warm up so we can sit in the garden this summer, I also love my walks with Alfie, it really calms my soul.  I enjoy looking at the trees, plants and the wildlife whilst we're out, even walking around the estate there's plenty to see.  

I've got my small table in the living room set up so I can see out the window and watch the birds on the garden, I love to be able to hear them singing in the morning and for the last few weeks I have a solitary magpie (I'm not suspicious) visit daily on the front garden, it's probably the same one that lands on the back garden and pinches a bit of dog food from the dish out there - omg I'm feeding the magpie now! 

Fancy getting involved - During Mental Health Awareness Week, we are asking you to do three things: 

Experience nature: take time to recognise and grow your connection with nature during the week. Take a moment to notice and celebrate nature in your daily life. You might be surprised by what you notice!

Share nature: Take a photo, video or sound recording and share the connections you’ve made during the week, to inspire others. Join the discussion on how you’re connecting with nature by using the hashtags #ConnectWithNature #MentalHealthAwarenessWeek

Talk about nature: use our tips, school packs, research and policy guides to discuss in your family, school, workplace and community how you can help encourage people to find new ways to connect with nature in your local environment.

For more information about this year’s Mental Health Awareness Week visit mentalhealth.org.uk/mhaw or join the conversation on social media using #ConnectWithNature and #MentalHealthAwarenessWeek 

Here's some tips Our top tips on connecting with nature to improve your mental health | Mental Health Foundation  I've already said I love the idea of doing my yoga in the garden on my decking once it's down, that would be amazing on a warm, sunny day.  

Today though, I'll be happy with a long walk with Alfie in whatever direction he takes me, then I plan to continue project upstairs, it's not a room anymore, it's the entire floor, every room is in chaos, until things are sorted, the walls are painted and the carpet fitted in the one room, then it will all work out, I'm homing to have upstairs sorted for when my brother comes so he has somewhere to sit (sofa is upstairs at minute!) and a comfy bedroom to sleep in, not forgetting it'll be one less thing on his 'to do' list! 

Have a great day, 

Mwah, luv ya, 

love me xx

Here's to another good day

Tuesday 11th May 2021

Collect moments not things.

Well it turns out I have a tardis room upstairs not an office, seriously how much stuff can you get in a room that supposed to be the box room!  I've got rid of most of the stuff that I'm not keeping, a few things left to rehome but there's still loads in there!  It's hard at first to let things go, it's emotional actually but the more I do it, the easier it gets and I love the space it leaves behind.  I'm gonna box it all up next so I can give the room a deep clean, now seen so much dust and cobwebs.  I might even paint it too once it's empty, see this is what happens once you start, you see that everywhere needs doing!  

If I take my time, a bit here a bit there, it'll all get done and it'll be cheaper than paying someone to decorate, I'm hoping the yoga will keep get me flexible and strong again so my shoulder doesn't end up in agony like it did scraping the walls. I believe use it or lose it though, so I'll risk it. 

I spent most of the morning on sorting, then when I eventually stopped around two it was because my body was starting to hurt and I was hungry, I cooked my bbq chicken thighs from Penn Road Butchers and made pittas with them, you can tell I was famished cos I took no care taking the photos, I just wanted to eat. 

  

That chicken is worth 150 calories per 100g and I really enjoyed the salad even though it's still not sunny!  Note to self - take the time to chop salad and eat it more often, it's good for you! 

I'm ready to get my healthy back again now, the more I declutter, the more my house is coming together, the better I feel.  Don't get me wrong there's still tears at time but they're coming from a place of love and loss, like yesterday whilst sorting I found mom hessian Christmas sack that has her name on it, I remember buying it and she loved going through that bag every year as I filled it full of crap she'd love, then I'd put it away for the following year, I think I knew when I put it away last Christmas, it wouldn't be used again. 

She's still everywhere in this house, from photos to her suitcase, not forgetting she is actually in a box under the stairs at the minute lol, ah you gotta laugh, she would - she's only there cos of the plastering, she's not doing a Harry Potter, she ain't staying there, we're going to put a bench around her favourite tree and she'll be inside the bench so we can sit with her on days we miss her most.

She loved stones didn't she, I have this idea that she'd love to be inside a big rock or a concrete box with a lid on, but if you start drilling into a big rock, surely it would break in half, it's not really feasible is it.  Anyway, I'm waffling. 

A busy day ahead, out and about today, love that Alfie can come with me, he behaves in the car and around people, little smasher, this time next week we'll be doing our first sit down huddles, lol, I was gonna lose weight for them - mmm well I managed half stone, that's something ain't it, I've had other things on my mind ain't I.  

I did resist ordering a Chinese takeaway yesterday, I'd even got it in the basket on their website, but said to myself "no I already have plenty of food in this house to be going at, I can't afford it, I don't need it, so I didn't have it!"  I can't eat crisps and crap cos there ain't not in the house anymore, that's helping too.  I ended up with potato wedges and the last of the chicken drummers, they're out my system now and won't be purchased again. 

Look forward to seeing lots of people today, whatever you're doing, enjoy it.  Take time to take care of yourself too. 

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me xx     

Eat that frog!

Monday 10th May 2021

Well project declutter office is well underway, but it'll take more than a few hours!  It's amazing how much stuff you can get in one small box room, I'm having to go through the paperwork before chucking it to make sure my bank details etc aren't on there and somewhere are the deeds to my house and I've not found them yet, doh!  I made good progress though, filled the boot of my car with stuff to pass on, half filled the bin with rubbish.  I only did a couple of hours because I was on zoom till ten, then walked Alfie twice and about lunchtime, I suddenly realised I hadn't eaten yet, that doesn't happen very often!  I'd got someone coming round to sit in the garden and have a UW quote (yes we can do that now so if you've been interested but not great with technology, it can be done face to face), so I grabbed a tin of tuna and ate it out the tin, oh and fed Alfie too cos I'd forgotten us both (bad dog owner).

Julie B took pity on me when she arrived and saw me eating out of a tuna tin, asked me what I planned to have for my dinner and my honest reply was whatever I can grab as the kitchen was full of stuff from the living room whilst the plasterer did the ways.  

Once he'd gone, and I'd signed Julie up, she offered to make me a dinner, how lovely are people!  I stood looking at my house, plaster dust everywhere, absolutely everywhere, it can't be helped, plus I'd had the room upstairs done last week hadn't I.  I got the hoover (which I hate doing) and got to clearing up, starting at the top and working my way down!  I'd just finished the mopping and was washing down the window sill, when a man on a white horse (I mean a bloke in a white car) pulled up, it was meals on wheels from Julie and Arf with this fine looking pork dinner and ma'an was it welcomed and well timed.  

I went and sat on a stool in the kitchen and inhaled it, I did give the dog a bit of my meat but I did't want too, I didn't realise I liked pork that much, I've never cooked it that well, meat is not my forte at all, oh and those spuds, done in the actifry with potato seasoning apparently, well I could've eaten a whole plate of them with gravy, and who knew I liked apple sauce.  Food taste so much better when a) someone else cooks it and b) you're actually hungry when you start eating. 

I've just done the washing up from the last two days (I know I'm a scrammel) but I'd been putting it off because of the chaos in the kitchen / rest of house and when I finally did it, it didn't take long and reminded me of eat that frog book, basically a book about procrastination and why you should get the worst job of the day done first, it really does make a difference, I feel ready to get stuck into that damn office again now.  I did find a few things in there that made my heart sing though, scrap books and photos of good times and memories, not just with mom but with my friends, it was good to be reminded of those times because I can start having them again now. 

Not today though, today the biggest decision I'm going to make is whether to go brave Ikea whilst Alfie's at the groomers, or to wait until more stuff is done in the house, although I could do with looking at paint for the walls too.  I just feel I need that office doing whilst I have the mood to eat the frog. 

I've planned my food today, I've defrosted BBQ chicken thighs from Penn Road butchers and I've got pitta breads, so that's my main meal sussed, I might have them with chips or frozen roasters because those yesterday have given me a craving for more :) 

What you putting off?  What are you holding onto that no longer serves you, things that are holding you back or just stuff that's cluttering up your home or mind?   

I'm working on me, a little bit at a time, decluttering is one part of it, figuring out what you want from life takes longer than a day.  So far I've realised I don't want to rush anymore or work more than I need too, I'd rather earn enough to pay the bills and enjoy every day a little more than work my ass off to buy stuff I don't need to impress people that don't matter or to save for a year for a week away from a life I don't like!  How many people do you know who are doing that? 

On that thought, I'm gonna get moving cos I'm sitting in the living room with the windows wide open to help the plaster dry as they were all steamed up with condensation when I came down.

Here's to another great week, make May matter. 

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me xx

Let the declutter commence...

Sunday 9th May 2021

Life is too short to spend it at war with yourself.

Well let's just say I've been away a long time!  Yesterday didn't go as planned which is okay, these things happen, so my plasterer had his second covid jab the day before and it knocked him about so he didn't come.  I'd already disconnected the tv/sky box put furniture in middle of the room and because he's hopefully gonna come today instead, I didn't want to put everything back.  Then my sister suggested a duvet day which didn't sound like a bad idea, I didn't quite have one of them but after working on the morning which was fab as always and then I was on the phone to my brother for almost 2 hours discussing plans and flights, so once I'd done that, I turned my phone off, watched a movie on my laptop and Alfie and I were in bed by 6ish, well I must have fell asleep pretty quick because I woke up just before midnight and I've not been able to get back to sleep since.  

A positive that's come from laying here for hours is I've made the radical decision, I'm doing an extreme declutter on my office, all the stuff I've been keeping because I might one day use it is going, I haven't scrapbooked in years and I've realised I'm unlikely to ever again and the scrapbooking I have done in the past is just shoved on a shelf and never looked at so why do it or keep it.  It served the purpose at the time, I enjoyed doing it but crafting ain't my thing anymore.  I love to crochet and that's enough to occupy my brain and hands and now my shoulder seems fixed, I'll be able to get back to doing that again.   I'm hoping by the end of the day to have got rid of a load of stuff!

I've also come to the conclusion that the larger of the two spare rooms can stay as a guest room with the double bed in and what is at the moment my office can be where I do my yoga, it'll be more than big enough I reckon once it's decluttered, the book cases won't be in the way, I think I can make it work and if not I'll continue to do it in the living room.  Now I can use furniture I already have in the spare room and I won't have to buy any new stuff.  See lack of sleep has just saved me money = bonus and I can have a snooze in the day if I need one or an early night again tonight, but not 6pm early!

I've been playing on Pinterest for the last hour trying to work out how to arrange my living room so as to fit everything it, I think I need a trip to IKEA, I want some of these to make the units I already have look fresh in the living room.  Cheaper than having alcove cupboards built ain't it! 

I also want a nice big rug too I think.

But first to declutter, it's half four now, I'm going to try one more time to get an hour or two sleep but if not, I'll get up and start my mission! 

Wish me luck, have a great day x

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me x

It's raining again....

Saturday 8th May 2021

A negative mind will never give you a positive life. 

Had a lovely early night, actually I'm really pleased with the sleep I'm getting, especially when you compare it to what it was like for the first few months of the year.  

I'm moving more too which is great, over 11k steps yesterday and 66 active minutes which means Alfie is actually walking not just standing and smelling so good for both of us. 

My knee wasn't too happy about all this movement but that painkiller gel helped a lot and it's just a little tight and crunchy this morning so as I get more active and lose some weight that will help take the pressure off it.  This is not a race, I've spent the last few years losing my level of health I had, so I'm not going to get it back in a week or even a month.  

No yoga this morning because there's no room, all my furniture is in the centre of the living room covered with clothes ready for the plasterer to come do the living room - YAY!  All I need now is to take the curtains down which I'll do when I've done this and had my shower, don't wanna be flashing and terrifying the neighbours!  It's all coming together slowly, I reckon I'll be able to start painting upstairs in another 2 weeks so that's the weekend of the 22nd which will give me time to then hopefully get it carpeted up there before getting the shelving units fitted first weekend in June.  I'll then have a space to do my yoga every morning and a mat big enough so that Alfie isn't completely in the way, although I'll get him a bed for that room, but I'll guess he won't use it! 

The yoga seems to have helped my shoulder so I'm hoping if I keep it up then I'll be okay to paint and it won't cause me too much pain like the scrapping of the wallpaper did.  

I boxed up all my wool yesterday I think and it's now stored in the concrete shed off my alley, I think it's okay out there for now, there doesn't seem to be any damp and I've never had problems before.  I can get in the office now so it's time to start the declutter - eek,  Time to decide what to keep and put in those new cupboards I'm having made and what needs to go, I've decided the crochet magazines can go, so that's loads of space made, I'll message a couple of crochet friends I have to see if they want them, or just take them to the huddles with help yourself on them.  My printer can stay in that room I reckon as it's wireless so can be stored anywhere and there's a unit for it to sit on.  Sorry this is me processing my thoughts, so not the most interesting of reading.  Maybe it'll encourage you to do some spring cleaning, decluttering, especially as the forecast is rubbish for the weekend, rain and more rain. 

Honest it feels great when you have less, clothes wise it's less to wash, ornaments and photos it's less to dust, even the kitchen cupboards, it feels better knowing where everything is and what you've got.  Yeah the office is my focus this weekend. 

Right I'm off, need to shower and get those curtains down, unplug all the tv etc so he has a clean run of the walls, it didn't matter if he made a mess on the floors upstairs, it does down here and he's like the Beverley of plasterers, a right messy bugga!  Those walls do look amazing though, so good to know they can just be painted over.  I do hope Terry can get back to the UK next month and get that hearth removed and the floor sorted, oh and decking outside for when we finally get some sunshine! 

I want my house to become a place where people are welcome to come and chill out (only people I like of course ;) ) 

Mwah, luv ya

Love me 

Give yourself a break!

Friday 7th May 2021

Stop overthinking, you're only creating problems that aren't there.

Well yesterday I tried to make spinach pancakes/crepes/wraps call them what you will, I found a couple of different recipes online 2-Ingredient Spinach Tortillas {Vegan, Grain-Free} | power hungry being the one I opted for because of the lack of oil being used.  

Anyway, proof that if at first you don't succeed lol, here's what happened!

It stuck to the pan, I couldn't get it out and it was too thick and a disaster.  Now that recipe calls for a blender, I only had a food processor so mine wasn't as clear as hers, mine had some bits of spinach in it still showing, she did say to leave it for a least an hour, I hadn't, so I took Alfie for a walk, then tried again when I got back with more success.  The ingredients I used were;

100g spinach

150g chickpea flour (Gram flour in Sainsburys) 

325ml water 

Big pinch of salt

Mixed it all together in food processor (blender better apparently) leave for an hour or more, then I used about 2/3rd ladle at a time, I also used a pan liner to stop them sticking, this kind of thing, pic from amazon but you can get them in places like B&M, pound land, if they're square but them into rounds. 

I was really pleased with how they turned out, 2-Ingredient Spinach Tortillas {Vegan, Grain-Free} | power hungry reckons they'll kill refrigerated in airtight container for up to 2 weeks, I managed to get 8 pancakes if you include the one that failed and they'd be about 75 calories each. 

 

I walked to get my car back again, my knees wasn't impressed when I got home, glad of that painkiller gel stuff I was, but I enjoyed the beef dinner I'd cooked before I left the house. 

I'm sleeping really well too, thankfully, I think that makes such a difference to everything.  Yesterday was a good day, maybe not a lose weight day but a good day. 

Now, I've been reading people's comments on Facebook about feeling ashamed of not being able to lose weight, or not liking themselves enough.  We all need to remember how bloody difficult this last 14 months has been, remind ourselves that our bodies and brains do everything in their power to get us to overeat, hell temptation is everywhere - give yourself a break and remember how BeYOUtiful and amazing you are!  You're surrounded by people who love you for you, not for the numbers on a scales or because you say no to that cake.  Do what you can when you can and when you struggle, give yourself a break, remember we don't take care of anything we don't love xx

Right let's do our best today, I've got another beef dinner to enjoy, I might have eggs on a breakfast muffin now with a big mug of tea.  I'm struggling to drink the water because it's so bloody cold!  

Mwah, luv ya

Love me xx

Here's to a productive day (I hope or maybe another film lol)

Thursday 6th May 2021

Sometimes Plan B works out better than Plan A ever could.

Well that's my yoga done for the day, my mat needs a clean, Alfie's been messing about on it and it's covered in scratchy bits lol.  I also clocked up almost 13k steps yesterday and 75 active minutes on the fitbit, that was because I dropped my car off to have the brakes sorted so walked the 3 mile back, was happy to sit down when I got back I won't lie, got to get my fitness levels back up, that's for sure. 

Food included this for breakfast, the guacamole was pricey but really good and to be honest it works out better for me because if I have avocados I end up eating the whole thing so expensive in money and calories, instead I just had a couple of spoonfuls of the guacamole and it was delicious.

I had an indulgent dinner after that long walk, pie, chips, peas and gravy, blooming delicious.

 

The pie was a bargain 75p (393 calories), really tasty especially for the price, you couldn't make em for that much and buying just one small one stops me from eating a massive one - which I would. 

I didn't do a lot yesterday, enjoyed the last episode of the Syndicate and just chilled out and pottered, plan to do the same today, blooming rain is stopping us from wanting to walk Alfie miles that's for sure, if my cars ready later, I'll go pick that up but if I know Tif, it'll be Friday. 

I'm gonna experiment in the kitchen I think, have a couple of recipes I want to try, spinach pancakes/tortillas being one of them, actually I'll do them for breakfast see how they turn out.  

I'm brain empty this morning, nothing to write so I'm gonna go make me a cuppa and get something done, I need to get sorting what I want to keep in that office and what I want to get rid of, I have a load of crochet magazines I think I'll donate to anyone who wants them, will go through the crochet boxes I had over the last few years too, sort what needs keeping and what can go.  Yeah that's my morning sorted. 

Right I'm off, mwah, luv ya 

Luv me x

Midway through the week already

Wednesday 5th May 2021

Don't let anyone dull your sparkle.

Well I had a great day yesterday and I woke up feeling great and ready for my day, day 3 of yoga and can already feel it working on both my body and mind, my shoulder pain is easing - yay and Alfie is loving my yoga mat!  I'll get me a nice big one when the back rooms done and he can have his own so I don't have to yoga round him :)

I got on the scales this morning and I've lost weight too, I got naked and I'm under the stone woo hoo, so that's 7 1/2lb gone since March 30th when I braved them for the first time after mom died.  I'm really pleased with that progress because I'm not being a hardcore dieter, I'm working on healthier, keeping my eye on the calories, this week I've also started looking at ingredients of things I buy I made my own hummus (ish) spread yesterday and I was going to buy an avocado but the last one I had went in the bin so I thought I'll have gaucamole, one of the pots had double cream in - WHY!   It's just not necessary at all, can you imagine being a veggie or vegan in a rush and thinking oh I'll pick a pot of guacamole up and have with something for lunch to find out it had cream in, you'd be proper annoyed. 

Back to the hummus (ish) spread on toast (300 cals), really nice, whizzed up drained canned chick peas with some low fat mayo and dijon mustard, will definitely have that again, really tasty and filling.  

Then for lunch I had this chicken biryani (548 calories) that Elle had picked up from Morrisons for me, that was tasty and convenient too, I reckon if I used Penn Road Butchers chicken thighs I have in the freezer, add some sultanas and rice and it would be a close match too, we both thought they were sultanas, I've just looked at the ingredients, they're cranberries! 

Now my tea was a random mix, I'd defrosted some leftover bubble and squeak from the freezer (300 cals), I had it with a can of WW spaghetti (100 cals) and a fried egg (80 cals) and those minted lamb grillsteaks were from the freezer (152 cals each) Alfie saw them off, can't say I was overly impressed, it was when I was going through my 'buy frozen processed crap' phase, I'm over that now, apart from Findus french bread pizza, I still love them even if I can't get them!  Maybe I'll buy a french bread stick and make my own at some point. 

My shoppings coming this morning, I'd ordered a couple of new veggie burgers that were on offer but they're out of stock so they're sending subs which I don't want - gutted I fancied them too, never mind we'll try again next week and click no subs.  

The suns shining at the minute and it's not forecast rain till this afternoon thankfully, I've got to take my car in this morning so if he's got to keep it, I might be walking home!  I don't need the car till Saturday so it's all good, I'm loving this new life, finding my way a day at a time.  

I can't wait for the sit down Huddles to start, two weeks now, soon be here, exciting times, let's hope we have an amazing summer and we can all make up for the past year by having wonderful times. 

Right I'm off, hungry this morning, have a very good day x

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me x