4th May 2012
You are not fully dressed until you wear a smile.
Was pleased I got through yesterday without going crazy with
the food, I’m always hungry on a Thursday but I stayed on track, finished with
some weeklies in place for today ;)
I’ve really enjoyed work this week, I enjoy it all the time
but this week a lot of members having realisations of the tracking thing, how
we all kinda do it sometimes but not 100%.
Last night as I was getting ready for bed looking for my Pjs
I looked at myself naked in a full length mirror, 20 years ago even though my
body was firmer I wouldn’t have liked my reflection. Any my body really has
chanced and that’s partly because I’m 42 and it’s older and partly because I’m
not willing to put in the gym hours and diet as strictly as I once did. I’m too busy doing other things, like helping
people find a happy balance in their lives so they’re comfortable with who they
are too and of course I’m also having fun.
I joke that I can either blow dry my hair every day or I can walk my
dog. I can be at work on time after a
run, or miss the run and beautify myself!
I can’t do it all, there are only so many hours in the day and I’ve made
choices and decided what’s important to me and if those choices mean I’m a
little heavier on the scales and I tie my hair up most of the time, well that
works for me because my life gets better everyday. I’m way happier at 42 than I ever was at 22,
at 22 I was so obsessed with my appearance and the shape of my body to the
point where I forgot I was supposed to be having a fun time too!
Yeah life’s good, I eat healthily 95% of the time, I run
when I can fit it in, I walk the dog daily, I have a job I enjoy doing every
day. I never get up in the morning and
think “oh no it’s…….” whatever day it may be, because I enjoy them all.
So last night when I looked at my 42 year old naked body and
it’s different shape, it’s a little softer and rounder than 20 years ago, I
smiled because it’s a happy body with a happy mind attached.
Do I ever think otherwise, of course I do, I’ll have the
odd, “OH my gosh, I’m fat & I need to lose weight and get fitter” moments,
but they don’t last! They usually appear
after I see an ex I haven’t seen for 10 years or an old school friend, these
people remind me of my past so instantly I think about how I looked then, but
then I remind myself I’m older now and I look at photos and see that I didn’t
look better back then just slimmer and I know I wasn’t happier then so I soon
get back to being a happy owl as I like to call it. (happy Over Weight Lady).
On that note, I’ve got loads to do because later I’m going
to use every remaining weekly and activity ProPoint I have left to go get
myself a bit giggly drunk with my besties and my brother, me and Lynne haven’t
been out since 23rd March so we missed out on the month of
April!
YAY bring on the day I can’t wait for it to begin.
May the Fourth be with ya – get it ;-) only get to use that
joke once a year. x
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