29th December 2017
If it costs your peace it’s too expensive
A year can do a lot for a person, I’ve only got to look at
my ‘on this day’ photos on Facebook to realise how different things were in
this house even a year ago. Mom was still
walking the dog, she hasn’t done that this year at all which makes me sad. Our lives can change in the blink of an eye
and we don’t always know it’s coming, we can’t always control it and that’s
life. We can however do deliberate things
to make changes we want because living in the ‘what if’ isn’t the best way to
live. Nothing is permanent, no matter how good or bad a situation is, it will
change, everything changes.
What changes in your life would you like to have some
influence in? Not necessary resolutions because
I think we all expect those to fail, what would you like to influence in your
life, what are your intentions for 2018.
One of mine I mentioned yesterday, I intend to continue to
be a starter because I love that feeling of enthusiasm, plus when I do finish
something that feels so good, I’m 2 rows of crochet of finishing the mish mash that
is mine and Alfies new snuggle blanket, although he has claimed it for
himself! I’ve sewed together every piece
of unfinished leftover knitting and crochet I’ve done in the last few years and
I have quite a large blanket and I love it, because if I were a blanket - it’s
me, a medium sized scruffy, disorganised, colourful mess – perfect!
Anyway back to my intentions. I also intend to continue to do my housework
as often as I can bring myself too, so I’d said I was going to go through the
house Wednesday – I lied, I did however do the living room, hall and half the kitchen
yesterday, the floors were done ready for my steam mop that was supposed to
arrive today but came yesterday (it’s still in the box). I’m not going to
commit to cleaning my house on such and such a day of each week because I know
that will never happen, but I do intend to clean and tidy it before it becomes
an embarrassment if we have visitors (thankfully I’m not easily embarrassed).
Next I intend to eat a bit of junk every now and again because
I enjoy it at the time and afterwards it reminds me that it’s not all that after
all and I’m not really missing out by eating healthily the majority of the
time. I was going to suggest a takeaway
or fast food once a month but I’m not putting a time frame on it, I’ll have a
bit of something when I feel the need as sometimes I can go for months without wanting
any.
Of course I intend to lose some weight, I bought a shirt in
the summer I haven’t worn yet because it didn’t quite fit me when I bought it but
I was going to lose a few pounds and it would’ve done, now that few pounds is
half stone, so here goes a stone by summer, I’d like to be as close to the
lower end of the stone below than I am now.
It’ll be a gain (obviously) on the scales Saturday when I get on to
check my ‘Christmas gain’ and start my weight loss journey yet again. Yeah don’t they say summer bodies are made in
winter (I always want to poke the person who come up with that in the eye when
I read it, but that says more about me than them).
Any other intentions?
I intend to remind myself that I love most of my life, most of the time
and to help me remember that, I’m going to use my Dawn French diary each night
to write something from that day that’s made me smile, happy or grateful for my
life. I don’t need a diary for
appointments, I have my phone and very few appointments.
Any other intentions?
I do intend to crochet myself that snuggly blanket, actually I think I’m
going to have two on the go at once, I’m still in thought, have 3 days left
before I start.
Lastly I intend to try my best to not let my hormones stop
me from seeing the good in every day, I intend to continue to cope with my
mom’s Alzheimers/Vascular Dementia the best I can with as much humour as
possible. These intentions are truly the
most difficult so they must be the most necessary. Yesterday whilst chatting I realised that mom
being a bloody nightmare (and she is, it’s like she has a complete personality
transplant) every night is most likely to be what they call ‘sundowning’, now I
know what the cause is I can cope with it better.
Right I have a busy morning, I need to work out that mop, I
have my windows being measured for curtains and my kitchen man coming to do a
little more, we’re nearly there will it be done before the new year, I’d love
that. Oh there’s another intention, to
make delicious food in my lovely new kitchen and enjoy every mouthful.
For now though, I’ll go make a cuppa in it instead. Here’s to a fabulous Friday, I’m going to mostly
be eating cheese today I think, because I’m still on my holiday, I might have a
cheese and bacon sarnie for brekkie – because I can!
Happy days BeYOUtiful. x
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