Right - I'm ready!

24th January 2022

Let's just be who we are.

Let's get some weight off!  I've had a wonderful birthday week, the scales will show tomorrow and I'll take the gain with a smile on my face because I enjoyed every moment of it.  I was spoilt with lovely flowers and gifts and surrounded by people that make me smile.  A huge difference to the last few years when I was lucky to get out for a meal for a couple of hours with my besties.  Can you believe in 8 weeks time it will be 12 months since mom died, where has that time gone, at least now I've done all the firsts without her, first Christmas, first birthday for both of us, just my sisters birthday to get through which will be tough because it was a couple of days before mom died.  What a bonkers year!  We spent Saturday making the back bedroom which was moms, more boy friendly so it's his own now.  It was very emotional for me as I realised I used clearing that room as therapy almost, it was what got me through those first weeks as it kept my hand occupied and wore me out every day, stripping the woodchip wallpaper, ripping up the carpet, sorting all her stuff.  I still have the bad back from it to remind me of my loss!  Although I shed a few tears on Saturday, it also felt good knowing mom would've liked Aryn and she always had a lot of time for Daragh, we even know she wanted us to get together because she wrote it in her diaries.  

Today, I get my healthy back, I've had a bad throat for a week and it's annoying me now, my snoring is even waking me up and my hormonal sweats in the night are also waking me up.  I believe cutting down drastically on alcohol, losing some weight, eating healthy and getting active again will help all those things and that's what I plan to start doing as of today.

I'm going to make sweet and sour pork with rice today using the leftover pork from the weekend, we all like that, I'll also make a Chinese curry for the males in the house for tomorrow, I won't eat that but I can make me something else.  There's pizzas too in the fridge and I can enjoy a few slices as long as I could the calories, the rest can be frozen and man child can eat them as and when.  The freezer has plenty of fish and veggie stuff in it and I need veggies, salad and goodness in my life, I'm missing it!

We had a get together Saturday in the garden and a wonderful time was had, yesterday we just kept walking in the kitchen looking at the mess and deciding it was better to go back to bed and ignore it or sit in the living room and pretend it wasn't there.  Today I shall mostly be sorting that chaos out and doing housework, I'll also try and get the lad out for a walk, he can bring his longboard with him and we can go over the park.  I'm hoping to hear about getting him into a school today or tomorrow, they said 10 school days when they called me on the 11th, I originally sent the first email with the in-year transfer form on the 4th.

Wish there was a cleaner knocking the door in an hour to sort this lot out but as there isn't I will think of it as activity that burns calories and get on with it.  I want to turn that 21lb weight loss into 2 stone, then 3 stone, yeah I'd be happy with losing 3 stone for sure.  

One pound at a time, fit for summer, and look forward to walking up those hills in Wales.

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me x