20th October 2015
Every day may not be good but there is something good in
every day.
So yesterday, well it happened, that is how I feel about
yesterday I'm afraid, it wasn't the best day I've ever had, there was still
good in it though! We had a follow up
appointment at the doctors and he's referred mom to the memory clinic and for a
brain scan, something is definitely not right and Alzheimer's is looking to be
likely. One a positive all her blood
tests came back good except iron which has always been a problem but it hadn't
got any worse since her blood transfusion 2 years ago, so my spinach and berry nutribullet
drinks are helping. Her cholesterol,
B12, everything else is spot on, she's pretty damn healthy despite her hiatus
hernia and half her stomach being in her chest!
Fighter ain't she.
So I threw myself a little pity party yesterday, I allowed
myself to cry when I got out of sight of mom, I don't want her worrying about
me, she has enough going on in her head.
I'll be deleting this part of my blog before giving her a copy, she
doesn't need to be thinking about what's going to happen next, I'll take care
of that and to be honest, I've decided not to think too far ahead, it's too
painful.
As I meditated this morning, I realised fear was the main
emotion of yesterday, then I remembered the change curve, which is the
different stages we go through when facing a change in our life.
The change curve can be used to acknowledge your way through
any change whether it be this or going on a diet ;)
It looks like this;
Well
I did shock a couple of years ago I think then I've spent that time in denial,
yesterday I did frustration and low mood (and I dare say that will come back
now and again over time), now I'm ready for the the next stage, learning to
work with what we have and make changes where necessary. We'll be positive and take it a day at a time
and laugh through it. (I'll cut out up to here before giving mom a copy of my blog x)
My
mindfulness headspace this morning was all about joy and happiness and the
importance of it, the sense of enjoyment and of play. It's something so many people neglect in
their lives, it's important to have fun, to be silly and to laugh often. That's my intention today, to be silly, even
sillier than normal. Playfullness,
enjoyment lightens the mind, it gives us a sense of enjoyment and contentment
and makes us feel happy in our relationships, it also rubs off on those people
around us. Try it, you might like it, I
intend to.
Yesterday,
I enjoyed a bit of retail therapy, my go to calm place is a supermarket and I
treated myself to Waitrose, yeah I had another coupon, £20 off, it has to be
done! Now I need to stop shopping, the
freezer is once again full and so is the fridge, but boy do I have some
delicious food for this week, I can't wait to eat it all and it's all within my
points and I'll be on track.
I
made a cottage pie too, spent an hour in the kitchen, I wasn't in the Delia
mood at all but I made myself as I knew I'd enjoy eating it. I did too, it was delicious, I topped it with
potato and butternut squash which bought down the points total.
We watched Live at the Apollo on the night, it was very
funny, a funny man named Tom Stade proper made me belly laugh, he's coming to
Wolverhampton too, unfortunately on a Wednesday night so I'll still to watching
him on Youtube or getting his video, then mom can watch him too.
Actually, I've just ordered his DVD from Amazon, that's £7
well spent, I do love my comedy, still got a Sarah Millican dvd somewhere to
watch, I'd forgot about it, yeah I think I could have early onset ;)
So today's menu, ooo I don't even know what to have first,
I'll actually go for the sell by dates, I know one is use by today so that'll
have to be lunch, might have smoked haddock for breakfast, mmm nom nom, I even
bought some hollandaise sauce, it's high but if I only have a spoonful on top
it'll be ok. Yeah that's sorted, smoked
haddock, egg, spinach and hollandaise sauce, with a slice of seeded bread
maybe.
Right I'm excited for food, I'm off to have a super day
filled with giggles and my wonderful members.
Happy to go to work, love my life, how blessed am I. Better go make mom another cuppa in bed
before she starts complaining ;)
Enjoy your day BeYOUtiful, remember happy people make
healthy choices xx
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