Survived a whole week!

Monday 3rd July 2023

Well I've snoozed in till 8am, check me out, only because Aryn has very kindly shared his head cold with me!   Yeah himself left at half five and I went back to bed, struggled to drop off but I must of managed it and I actually feel better for it.  

Well I managed to survive the weekend re food intake, I've tracked it all on my nutracheck app, ma'an it's difficult at first but I have done a week 100% accountability and although I wasn't an angel and I didn't stick to the total I'd set to lose 2lb a week, I still did a damn sight better than I would've done had I not tracked it. 

Yesterday I went to KFC for the lads and I sat and watched them eat it!  Damn that was a tough one, I love KFC but I knew I'd want a couple of pieces at least which would've cost me about 500 calories, which thinking of it now I could've had but it was more about me proving I can resist stuff.  I've fancied a filet o fish from maccy's for a couple of weeks now so I had that instead, so it's now out of my system and it wasn't all that, next time I'll make a fish finger bap myself and I reckon it'll be better, Aldi do a version of the fish burger too.

We went to the pub to see my brother Saturday for a few hours and I was good there too, again over my calories for the day but 2000 for the day in total is good enough for starters.  

This week I plan to keep it low in the week so that I can have a bit more at the weekend, depending on my result tomorrow, I might change the weight loss goal to 1lb a week.  Actually I've just checked the difference's I'd get and for 2lb = 1400 calories, 1.5lb = 1534 calories, 2lb = 1784 calories.  I've changed it to 1.5lb a week, middle ground.

I should easily be able to do that with some thought and I plan to not drink till Friday which will make it much easier.  I didn't feel good Saturday when I got ready to go out, from my pain to how I felt in my clothes, I rarely worry about my image but for some reason on Saturday I was bothered, I don't feel 'great' in anything in my wardrobe right now if I'm totally honest with myself.  I'm hoping remembering that will help me to lose some weight going forward, the pain is definitely my biggest motivator right now but not wanting to go out because I didn't feel great and knowing going was gonna mean I had to calculate the calories impacted me!  

Of course I don't want 'saving calories' to stop me enjoying life, but if I am more aware during the week and don't mindlessly consume calories I don't need will mean I can go out and have a good time without being concerned about the calories I'm consuming.  I think that makes sense lol.

In a nutshell I don't want to be this weight anymore!  It's been just over 2 years since mom died and I don't think I realised the effect it had on my physical body not just my mental health.  Sitting round all the time keeping her company, throughout covid when I didn't have to leave the house to go to work, when mom was at her worst, I basically sat or slept round the clock!  That's no good for anyone!  It wasn't until Sheila (a member) said to me last week, 'never underestimate the effect looking after your mom had on you' that I realised I had.  

I've got all these reasons to take care of myself now and I'm ready to take action.  I'm one week down, I've found it really, really hard because over those years, I created some terrible habits and they replaced all the wonderful habits I'd built beforehand, but you know what, I can rebuild them.  I can make changes and help my body heal, take some pressure off my knees, eat foods that will help with lowering my inflammation.  

Basically stop pretending I'm not mistreating my body! 

Well that was a sermon wasn't it, but I needed to write it, I'm going to save this one for me to reread when I find myself slipping.

Here's to having a good day, a healthy day, not letting this head cold make me sit round feeling sorry for myself, I won't go crazy because I don't want to make myself worse, but I've had over 9 hours sleep so I'm more than rested.  I've got a 3 gousto meals left because Aryn wasn't well enough to want to eat them, the only one we cooked was this one which Aryn really enjoyed Saturday night.

  

I'm going to cook a couple of them today, one's a Moroccan shepherds pie so I will freeze that for another day I think.  I'm also going to go look at the ones I have coming this week and check the calories, see if they need changing or I can fit them in.  

Right I'm off, the washing machine just pinged.

Mwah, luv ya 

Love me x