Avoid comparing yourself.
"Life is not fair & things do not happen for a reason!" Those were the words of Lucy's sister on Instagram at the news of Phil's death and how true are those words! I've been overwhelmed by everyone's generosity so far on the Go Fund Me Page I set up yesterday to try and help Lucy as much as is possible.
There is no upside to this situation, my very, dear friend has lost her soul mate . their beautiful children have lost their father. Look how happy they all were just this last week, that's the only thing that eases the pain a little, knowing he was obviously in the happiest place, knowing he was going to marry his sweetheart.
It would be easy to go into 'sod it' mode where food and taking care of ourselves is concerned and think well we could all be dead tomorrow, but we know that's not really logical! We have to take care of ourselves as best as we can to be able to live our best lives. Phil and Lucy lived life, they knew how to enjoy themselves, Lucy also did everything she could to keep the family healthy and we need to do the same right now.
Of course I was preoccupied by my friends world yesterday but I have to continue with my life, so I went to our huddle yesterday morning which was great, certificates a plenty handed out and a brilliant topic talked about. Food wise because I've got a stinky cold, I had a sausage sandwich for brekkie, for lunch I was planning on having the other sausages with mash and beans but ended up with mash and beans as Alfie ate my sausages, then for tea I had noodles and an egg. Simple food, eating the kitchen contents ain't I, but not all at once.
I think I'll take the leftover curry out the freezer I made last month, that'll be delicious and it'll also help to unblock my nose :) the other benefit of it is there's no preparation necessary, just stick it in a pan, warm it up and have with microwave rice!
I'm looking forward to a weekend at home relaxing, my life really has changed so much and Lucy's will too and myself and all her friends (because she has so many because she is loved so much) will all be here for her to support her through it all.
Apologies for not being ra ra and uplifting as I like to be, normality will be restored soon I promise, I just feel a little helpless right now not to be able to make it all better for her, I'm a doer, a sorter, a fixer and this can't be fixed can it, which is a big pile of poo!
On that note, let's have the best day we can shall we.
Mwah, luv ya
Love you xx
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