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Tuesday 21st September 2021

Sometimes later becomes never - do it now!

There's nothing better than after waking at 4.30am realising you were in bed for 8 so you've had well over 7 hours sleep so you're not gonna be tired.  That's how my day started today and Alfie slept a bit better than the night before so no keeping me awake, he was a bit of a bugga again yesterday, so definitely no more cake type treats for him from now one, I can't handle the two day come down!  Plus I don't think it helps his skin condition much either, cruel to be kind and all that. 

Yesterday flew by, had my hair cut on the morning, I love it, until I had it down on Saturday I hadn't realised how long it was, she took about six inches off it and its still a little longer than shoulder length!  She's also added lots of layers so I feel like my heads really light now :) I also love that if I want to I can wash and leave it and it'll go wavy or I can still tie it up.  Selfies aren't my thing so this is as good as I could get to show you;

I always used the excuse 'I haven't got time to be faffing with my hair' as an excuse to have it tied up and left all the time but guess what, I do have time now, I'm not working 60 hours a week and caring full time for my mom.

Can you believe it was 6 months yesterday since mom passed away, she'd be so pleased to see me happy again, she hated that I was having to care for her.  The dementia never completely destroyed everything in her brain, she still had flashes of 100% being there and she knew what was happening to her, which was what made it worse for both of us, I didn't want her to suffer and know and she didn't want me to have to stop living.  I'm enjoying my life for the both of us now. 

Having said that, I need to have a few healthier days this week, I didn't do too bad yesterday, had a second cooked dinner using the leftovers and that kept me going for most of the day.  

I did manage a workout even though I wasn't in the mood, I made myself and the half hour passed and I felt better at the end than I did at the beginning.  I promised myself I'd just show up for 30 minutes activity even if I just walked on the spot for them.  It made the difference between hitting the 10k steps and not, 65 active minutes makes me smile, especially on my day off. 

Yes I want to lose weight but being fitter and healthier is most important, I'm a big believer the weight loss will follow over time, food and alcohol has gone from being probably the most important thing in my life this time last year to being something I really enjoy and always will but not the main focus of my day!  I'll always love food, alcohol and everything that goes with it but it is nice to have other things taking up my time, even simple things like last night I sat in the garden enjoying the last hour of sunshine whilst listening to some jazz, then I came in put the tele on for an hour and didn't even think about opening a bottle of wine, that would've been the first thing I'd done even 6 weeks ago!  

I've finally got that work / life balance thing and I feel amazing, it means living on less money but that's okay, I can do that, time is more important and there are things you can do that don't have to cost lots of money.

If I could just get my food bill cheaper :) I'd be sorted!  No shopping this week, I have plenty pasta in the fridge to live off, actually yeah, I'll enjoy some of that later. 

Shall we have a great day?  I'm up for it - are you? 

Mwah, luv ya 

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