26th April 2013
“Keep away from people who try to belittle
your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel
that you, too, can become great.” - Mark Twain
Today I’m beyond proud, all my members weight loss journey’s
are inspirational but Denise’s is just amazing, losing 299lb (21st
5lb) is just a scary amount of weight to comprehend, can you imagine walking
into a Weight Watchers meeting knowing you have that journey in front of you,
realising it won’t take weeks, or months but years to get where you want to
be. To try to motivate yourself enough
week in, week out to continue that journey, to face with all the things that
life throws and you and yet continue on your way towards your goal, that takes
so much courage and determination and if she can do it then we have no excuse
at all really do we! Here are some
photos Denise has allowed me to share of her over the last four years, she will
be getting me some more after photos taken but she’s a little busy smiling at
the moment to care I’m sure.
Now we all know how difficult weight loss is, life gets in
the way sometimes doesn’t it, some of you will have read the poem, “there’s an
angel on your shoulder and a devil on your back” I’m sure, I’ve talked about
the ‘voices’ in my head in previous blogs (don’t pretend you don’t have them
too!) it’s also known as your subconscious but I like to call it my diet
demon! Well she was loud on Tuesday and
took some silencing I can tell you and I’m guessing quite a few of you have had
similar conversations with yourself – silently I’m hoping! Let me talk you through my day, I have a
magic number that when I hit it on the scales, I pay a little more attention to
my eating and lose a few pounds, I may be a Happy Owl but I don’t want to be an
uncomfortable one carrying anymore weight than my magic number. Anyway I’d hit that number on Sunday so I
decided to reign it in, I managed to resist the amazing cake in the café in
Ironbridge, then on Monday I’d made it through the day without snacking or
going overboard, so on Tuesday morning at my meeting I treated myself to a nice
new pink journal (because I’m worth it!) and when I got back home, I sat and
filled in Monday and Tuesday mornings food entries, I measured myself and
filled that bit in, I took a before photo, I’m guessing I’m not the only one
that does this, all in my best hand-writing and the same colour ink because it’s
a new journal (give it a week or so and it’ll be scrawl!). So then I go downstairs to eat lunch and my
moms having a funny turn of some sort, I rush over doctors (lucky that its on
the corner of our street) he told me to take her across, did some tests, rang
the hospital and sent us straight to A&E, we then spent the rest of the day
there, and mom had to stay overnight which neither of us were happy about. So have you guessed what’s coming next? I’m driving home thinking I need to eat, it’s
9pm and I’m shattered, my diet devil says “we could have chips or a takeaway”, I
remind myself I’m trying to get away from that magic number on the scales, my
devil says, “oh come on, it’s been an horrendous day, no one would judge you
for going of track today of all days, you’re upset, you’re tired, you’re hungry
and you’re a bit scared for your mom too, anyone you explained the situation to
would totally understand your justifications for going to the chip shop”. I didn’t have a takeaway, I went home and
knocked up some microwave rice and had a rice sandwich – really don’t judge me
it was delicious! I don’t know what made
me strong enough to resist on Tuesday but I did, I don’t always obviously,
otherwise I wouldn’t have hit my magic number. Maybe it was because I’d just bought a nice,
new pretty journal and I didn’t want to mess it up on day 2, or maybe the magic
number scared me enough to stop me, or maybe I was just too exhausted to stop
and I wanted to get back to my dog. I’m
guessing you all can relate to the ‘talking yourself out of staying on track’ conversations
and justifications though, we all do it don’t we, and sometimes it’s okay to do
it, but all the time it isn’t because then you will never get to your goal!
So I’m still on track because I don’t like that magic
number, I want to get back to my Happy Owl digits ;-) where do you want to get
to and are you strong enough to realise sometimes you have to silence the diet
demon’s chatter and stay on track.
Why? Because it’s worth it and
because you must want to lose weight or you wouldn’t join a slimming
group. I want to be healthy and happy
and what I consume affects that, so for now I’m tracking everything and cutting
down a bit, not massively because I can’t handle that approach, I’m in no rush.
So here’s to a day of Eating Gorgeous, spending time with my
mom and taking care of us because we’re worth it! Remember you are too!
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